What are Words?

2011-12-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we just got to start again.

Here's my restart, my new beginning. I can do this.

Its when you tell me how much i meant, i'll understand.

2009-02-22T17:49:00.003+08:00

Went out to celebrate Tuna Fish Sister's birthday ystd. Despite receiving the scam sms, we headed to Bugis for some shopping walkwalk and then Sakura for dinner whoo!~ That place is my favourite really. I can eat till my stomach burst there HAHA. But the environment was like....WORMS AND ANTS WERE SEEN EVERYWHRE!!! Wdh! No more next time thre, gotta find another better restaurant. heh heh.

My sisters are the weirdest creatures (points below):

RIGHT???? Crazy,really.

I have maths test tmr, but im stil really blur about some facts. Its like that, without tuition, im like a bird without wings. :( But i gotta cope on my own now, do things myself and such. i can do it!!!!!!

Im very very very happy cos...i've got an exemption letter from the doc yay! Crosses fingers, hope that pe teacher would accept and I DUN NEED TO RUN ANYMORE! How nice (:

Im looking forward to school everyday because im in a wonderful class and i've wonderful classmates and buddies always hanging tgtr!!! Heeheee~

Im emo and sad that i missed the TFF outing on fri...next time pls?

But im very very very happy that i finally metup with my dearests at Bedok for some nice and simple dinner. We talked ALOT and its great feeling to be able to hang out with them like this and talk about everything and still feel, Together. Its weird that we're apart but our hearts as one. Im confident now. I wanna all frenships i cherish to last, and they will.

Oh and...im acting like i've got the acting role in CCS! How surprising but im glad :) Im just hoping the lines will be little, which shld be, since im acting something small hahaha.

TAG REPLIES:

Ruddin: HAHAHA My red eye haven recover leh omg hate it :(

Nat: REALLY? (: Yay im guai, anyway meet up again leh pls!!!

Tander: I miss you too leh MADAME :(

Huilin: ITS VERY SHORT COMPARED TO debi's and nicole's haha :P And pls fix a time again, i wanna see you all very badly :(

Natasha: Aww man :( pls love BB too they're so cute :) ! hahaha!

My redeye is still....Pink. Ahhhh...

Oh and im going for, a new look heh.

Red i like, but not-REDEYE.

2009-02-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

Head over heels, Heels over Me.

I can be ultra random. Todae is a hmmm bad dae :/ Not because of anybody or anything, but MY EYE! MY STUPID RED EYE :( Im upset cos i look like dunno what the whole dae with that stupid eye of mine which is red and abit swollen just cos i dun have enough sleep wdh! Ahhhh unfair not i want de what, i need to go to school right. Ayy. Todae was another enriching dae filled with tutorials, and friends that are so wonderful, we love school! HAHAHA. And we were kinda like camwhoring durin ct period..and we took random big head shots with germama as photographer! And i hope the photo wouldn't reflect my random red eye :(

Say Hello to my wonderful classmates HAHA!

boys are...BOYS!

Can you see my RED EYE!?

More Pictures are at Jedidah's camera, i think i grab some from her soon heee. Actually i've this super funny picture of Shuwen and Luomin, President and Vicepresident of stoners' club stoned picture HAHAHA! But i scared ltr they cut ties with me...tmr i ask them first :) .
I havta find some poem of LiBai's.................. im stil finding.
I needa pay money for alot alot alota stuffs........... im getting it from dad ltr.
I...im crapping already, can you feel it?

TAG REPLIES:
Luomin: HAHAHA Wlao you random pie how can you forget me ah! :P
Debi: HA im small and cute you mean? (big wide smile) hehheh of cos i nvr lah! but im really busy....i'll find time out i promise (:
Ger Aka Mama: Hello mama!! (: Yes yes yes im Seungri's love okay!
Huilin: Eyecandies is must show you secretly de mah, how can put here! HAHA (: Miss you toooo! lovelovelove~Seeyousoon ya!
Natasha: HAHA You like bb too? Im gonna qn you tmr!!! HAHAAAA:D
Jedi: YESSSSSSSSS! (: You too? tmr i must qn you also!!!
Koha: Yalah come back to see your pretty fren now now now! (:

I think the guy rapping in my blogsong is verrrrryyyy cute.... heeheeeeee :D
And i dun like my frens cos they dun agree with my thinking that bluespecsguy is cute too :(
My econs teacher is....really powerful alumni HAHA!

0935 0935 0935 i love yall!

2009-02-17T21:38:00.003+08:00

0935 IS THE BEST CLASS MAN!

School officially started for two daes, and it has been so so so super fun HAHA. I really love my new class, they're super enth super on super fun to be with, esp with so many jokers in class! HA HA HA. I like it when our whole class, or rather, majority of us hang out tgtr during lunch breaktime and such, really very enjoyable. Classmates are super on, already planned to do class tee shirts, class jackets, class shoelaces, even class earstuds OMG! Cant believe im in sucha crazaye class heh heh. Heng classmates can take my lameness and laughter and craziness too. We formed many many clubs, totally a bunch of lameness! They'll kill me for saying this but its true! HAHAHA (: I hope as days pass, our fun lingers and even accelerates ya!

Sidenote, im meeting my girlfrens on fri for dinner! Though i'll be all smelly and tired since lessons end at 5.30 for me, i'll stil travel all da way to bedok to see their asshole faces HAHAHA Ahhhhh Can't Waittt!

Tag Replies:

Nat: STOP IT ITS GETTIN MAD!! HAHAHA:P Miss you :(

Koha: Yalorrr! U lah! Escape to america hahaha. pls come back asap we all miss you like shit can! (:

Kevin: Yes of cos, and im sorry i cant make it this fri! Lessons end late :/ seeya real soon yepp!

Tander: FINE :p!

Ze: GO AWAY!~

Qiao Hao: I MISS YOU TOOOOO! :( YES OF COS! Arrange arrange!!! (:

Oh to summarise, my econs (relief for 2 terms) teacher rocks! :D

HA HA HA HA!

Can't help but Wait.

2009-02-14T17:00:00.002+08:00

I MISS ORIENTATION DAYS ALREADY LAH!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!

Orientation night ended with a BLAST i tell you. Disco Night was the finale, and guess what disco lights were shone evrywhre and it was dark and all and me and my frens were like screaming and dancing our hearts out omg damn fun damn fun damnnnnnnn! And we saw our eyecandies and we were like " Ahhh look at him!!!" den we started cheering and i was telling them "Nvm he cant see us also what!" HA HA HA omg we suck, or I suck to be exact haha. Our tribe didnt win best cheer or best tribe only OG7 wont best OG, Quite unbelievable they had a majority of guys you see haha. But but i really enjoyed all the time we had tgtr playing and competing and of cos, having loads of fun! Yay!! Gave our ogls, annabella,jingyu,kenneth and peiling great big hugs aft the whole thing. Awww really love them and all the stuffs they done for us,really. Nyjc whoo!~

Ok back to reality. Lectures and tutorials and ccas all up next wk. Talking about cca, everyone seem to be joining sports ah. HAHA But cool lah! Im in CCS also cool what! And i wonder what role i'll be acting, or am i even acting(?). Bet it'll be a ultra small role with less than 10lines but i'll be super glad already and i'll force all my frens come see me act tht few lines HAHA. Aiya dun even know got chance not, see how first ba :) heh heh.

Okay see ah below got ALOT pictures, actually got more, but stupid ze is reluctant HAHA nolah, she went to sleeeep, Again! HAHA so those above was the day we met aft school reopens, the others was during Chingay09! I miss you all already, meeetup meetup!

Okay, actually im looking forward to school starting,cos i must do what i told myself to (: And I Will.

Tag Replies:

Nat: Ok let's stop the game, its getting crazy!!! HAHA :D Updated too!

Ruddin: IS THAT A COMPLIMENT! HAHA :) HAPPY VDAY TOO!

Tander: I miss you darling~~~~~~ our vday sucks.

Sotong: I miss you tooooo! AND I HAVE NO BF PLS THANKS!

Sheena: Wootwoots! hahaha happy vday!

Huixian: Hello!~ Happy vday! (:

Sorry ah, replyin here is easier heh heh.

Can't help it, You're still number 1..

(Its not about my bf or what okay! I dun have!!!!!omg am going mad.)

/////omgomgomgomgomgomgomg,but what an end,i suck,really,seriously.

Proud to be a NYJCian!

2009-02-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

N-Y-J-C (Clapclap)* !

Yay im kinda feeling belonged to the school already, can sincerely cheer for the school and am proud of it. Seriously, Ny isn't bad as what alota ppl thinks so so Yeah! N-Y-J-C!!! (:

AND ANYWAY I DUN HAVE BOYFREN LAH! ANYHOW! HAHA.

If i have, i will sae de lah, i think needa wait another decade lor! :/

HAHA Okay fine.

Tag Replies here: (like easier)

Sheena: Yes we will meet in Uni so jyjys now! (: and dun worry i'll update you de Heehee :D

WanJing: I miss 4IT08 toooo! When's next class gathering!? organise!!!

Edward: Thanks Koha! I miss you!!!

Huilin: TFF FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER WHOO!

Tander: I love Ny now whooo~! And Yalah ccs! cool what! :P

Debi: I WILL CONSULT YOU MAN! Hahaha. drama whoo!

Nat: I DUN HAVE LAH! :P

Tmr's last dae of orientation already :(

Fri's the start of boring lectures, talks, lessons etc. Borrrringggg....~

I hope to enjoy tmr's last dae of orientation! Go Alex!!!!!!!

ALEX09-0935!

2009-02-09T21:14:00.001+08:00

NANYANG JC!~

ALEX09/0935!

Orientation Madagascar 09!

Yepp Im having quite abit of fun on first dae of orientation already, cant believe it. I thought i'd be a total loner cos im the only chungchengian in the class But classmates are all so nicee and we have common interest^^(tsktsk) heh so cute. Me and a few classmates being hiphop tmr wearing this super big L Size orientation tee becos no more M's left super funny damn big seriously. And tmr's Sentosa whoo! Im anticipating, i reallly hope it'll be fun, we'll all be enthu and such Really Hopefully Pls? (: heh heh heh.

OhAlex Woxihuan Pilipala woxihuan ROAR!~

Oh and im officially member of CCS which is actually chinese drama, dun laugh thankyou(: And im going for auditions this wed for syf to act (hopefully) cos i prefer acting leh..hmm dunno what to do or prepare either. cdc fren tell me i must be brave hav confidence be loud and be natural. I needa work on being brave and confident, cos i've nvr attended auditions,Gosh.

And...Im really glad about somethings. Some little things which could just not only make your day, but your life, well MY LIFE to be exact. Im very very glad and happy in fact. Thanks to you. I really am super Glad. No words can explain, but really,its worth it. You make me feel worthed it. And stil, worth it.

Am super tired now, going to shower and have a deepdeep sleep for tmr to be energetic heh. So will reply tags another dae,sorry!

I know my blog's plain, ze promised me pictures tmr, So yay! let's wait. HAHA.

you bring me the scent of memories

2009-02-06T17:50:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU ALL SOOOOOO MUCH, REALLY! :(

i miss girlfrens, i miss 4it, and surprising i miss cchms so much. cant bear to let go of the days of gathering at bench, rushin down upon hearing william'stell, getting back to class, gossips and laughin and singing with tff, recess with my girls,and then back to more gossips more sleeping more laughin with tff in class, and cheer as the last bell rings, goodbyes to tff, and then off for lunch with girls whre we debated tamp/bedok. SUCH BEAUTIFUL DAYS WHRE I ALWAYS TOOK FOR GRANTED, now i kinda miss them i kinda want them back. :'(

Time flies like dunno what sai lah wapiang. Todae is fri, ended off the first wk of Jc life how fast. First few daes were ultimate loneliness, but managed to get to know a whole bunch of nice ppl from Riverside Sec they're super fun to be with. So its like kinda funny to see a cch girl with a bunch of riverside boys and girls HAHA. Heng some of them from clep so we all can like be tgtr Whoo! And we have goals of knowing more ppl in clep too heh heh But a pity we're not in the same class Ahhhhhhh! Now i'll be all lonely and such again. I need classmates and good friends in class too!!! :( Im worried again, hais.

Hopefully next week would be a good start?

If not because they dug it out from me ystd, i think i wont ever wanna face my own feelings because i know im nt prepared to and i cant bear to leave that yet. Be it whether if that kinda thing still stays or not, i know nth can change anything now already. Im fine with it, but just perhaps will get a little hang of it now and then. Well perhaps i shld learn it sooner lest things happen again. No i wont let it anyway, because im sure both of us have our own ambitions and ideas now. That doesnt matter, the future doesnt, my feelings doesnt, the past doesnt, what matters is i wanna see you happy and then i'll be happy.

IF EVERYTHING WORK AS PLANNED, I WILL BE SEEING MY DEARESTS GIRLFRENS THIS COMING WEEKEND, BUT THAT IS "IF!" EVERYTHING WORKS.

Awww pls do make it, i miss you all so much i can cry upon meeting you all lah.

YOU ARE A SERIOUSLY CHEEBYELY BASTARD. GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH A PIGEON.

2009-02-03T15:38:00.001+08:00

FUCK YOURSELF IN THE BUTT, ASS. YOU SHLD JUST GO STUFF YOUR FINGERS INTO YOUR ANUS AND MASTURBATE LIKE SOME SICK ASS IN THE TRAIN YOU FUCKER. MAY YOU BURN IN HELL, MAY YOU BE DEPRIVED OF SEX FOR YOUR WHOLE DAMN LIFE, MAY YOU GET TRAMPLED BY 20 HORSES, THEN BITTEN BY TIGERS AND FINALLY LEAVE TO ROT AND SLOWLY DIE, A SLOOOOOOW DEATH KINDA. BASTARD. BURN YOU.

Im seriously burning mad now, no apologies Gahhh. Some stupid asshole stole my handphone! He actually unzip my bag in the train and fucking hell took my handphone what an ass! And even worst, no "nice" passenger actually warned me or shouted anything, How "nice" you people are, fuck you all to hell too. Damn it. Damn you all damn you bastard too. Wtf lah seriously, all my contacts, just when im changing school and all my precious contacts are now lost Tmd. Im damnnnn freaking mad with this little asshole who did sucha bitchy act. But anyway my phone is ailing and almost half dead so have it if you want sucker.

Sidenote...., School was alright todae, but i did alota things on my own, attented lectures myself, sitting alone and such. Im getting used to it, im more lookin forward to next wk whre i get to know my classmates, i'll bond with them manz HAHAHA. At first i felt uncertain about coming to ny and choosing my combi, but now im rather sure of myself. My anxiety was cos i had no frens thre and being alone sucks. That feeling. But now im getting used to it, i love ny's environment, and the ppl thre are nice too. I believe next wk aft class allocation, things might change for the beta, i might get to know ppl better i guess. I dun care what ppl sae badly about ny what i know is im gonna strive here and ace Alevels just like any other jc student. (:

OH AND ALL MY DEARESTS FRENS WHO HAVE MY PHONE NUMBER, PLS SEND ME AN SMS OR CALL ME NOW NOW NOW OKAY!!! I WONT FORGET ANY SINGLE ONE OF YOU ALL SO PLS CONTACT ME ASAP AND GIVE ME YOUR NUMBER THANKYOUUUUUU~~~!

DAY ONE @ NY.

2009-02-02T14:45:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh First dae of school was...hmmm, bad. I didnt make any new frens or whatsoever. Evryone seemed to have their own frens wearing identical uniforms, and there i am, so many cch people but none familiar. Haiss. im supposed to attend some lecture about clep but i skipped it thus the early arrival home. Felt sucha loner, i miss my frens. I miss them so much. Seeing all those cliques, we're all wearing diff uni, makes me feel so outcast. We all posted to the same school, but i cant seem to find any sense of belonging to ny yet. Perhaps its just day one uh. I kinda feel sad that siok isn't coming here, at least she can buy uni and walk arnd with me, at least i've someone with me. At least. Shld i've tried out ajc instead? Ayyy... its all too late anyway, im posted here, my first choice. I shld be glad and all happy.Now im not glad, im not lookin forward to tmr... :(

Choosing sub combi now, a whole series of lectures this week gah. Sian.
Hope tmr would be a much beta day.....somehow.

BIG BANG IS VIP

2009-01-31T23:15:00.006+08:00

Just got home not long ago, wondering what happened at Deb's party :(
Im really sorry i couldn't make it i would if i could, really.

Having a bad headache now, damn it damn it damn it. Gahhhhh im not feeling good, mood swings or whatever shit or whatever im just having a damn mood now.

I was browsing the net and ,....

BIG BANG BIG SHOW CONCERT

January 30 (7:30 pm)

January 31 (6:00 pm)

February 1 (3:00 & 7:00 pm)

TMD TMD TMD! If only they would be coming to Singaporeeee! Ahhhhhh look at those photos it all seems so fun so fun so fun!! Dearest BB! Why wouldn't you guys come Sg and let perhaps me deb and tander get into the changing room backstage to be with you all Awwww im in lala land who cares HAHAHA. Gahgahgah omg omg omg i wanna see them for REAL. Pls grant me this wish someday cos im really head over heels in love with every single one, esp Hyunhyun! (:

Long list of to-dos:

Get a pencil case, stationery, shoes, handphone, tmr needa check out the journey to new school, learn to speak more and be nicer so can make more new frens (hee), think hard about sub combi, another gettgtr with girlfrens, and....hmmm to be continued i guess HAHA.

CHINGAY 09

2009-01-31T01:55:00.001+08:00

Chingay 2009 was quite interesting, didnt realise this kinda artistic stuffs would be so nicee too HAHA. Well if it wasn't for Jiamin, i wouldnt go lor heh lucky her. Sadly, only Ze and I went out today, which marks our last outing already. The others all had something on :( ayyy. have some pictures at Ze thre will upload once i got it from her. She's utmost paedo keep staring at the little foreign boy sitting beside us, sickass HAHAHA. Oh and we watched Allswellendswell2009 with my free tickets heh, so funny lah okay it was lame but really funny we like!!!

Can't believe we're all walking diff paths soon, haiss. Felt really emotic today thinking about the diff schools we'll be heading to. Yepp all 6 of us will be going to diff school, each one manz. Oh and im posted to nyjc, so yay nanyang student-to-be. Gotta check the routes during the wkend. Haisss all's coming too fast mon is start of school already, super sianzations really. I love the kinda life now whre i can do whatever i want. Ayy forget it, our goal, to ace As.

Oh Andddd!,

HAPPY SEVENTEEN NATKOH! (:

Heh heh may all your wishes come true and wish you all da best in whatever beholds in your future! Im sure you're gonna have a bright future alongside creating a beautiful family! Loveyou baby and i'll miss you!!!

Muackmuackmuack happy birthday!!!

I gotta sleep already. More visiting tmr, im sorry deb i really cant make it to your party, Have fun yeah! Loveyoutoo! (: oh and i lost all links while changing blogskin, do let me know if i nvr link you!

On the move, Oh 4IT!

2009-01-29T15:16:00.001+08:00

Okay, Blog's kinda messy now, heck it pls. Just changed blogskin, but i gotta rush out soon for Class outing i stil needa get sis stuffs(hopefully).
Okay goodbye,will be back to mend it tonight! 4IT08 (: I miss yall.

xin nian fa cai!!

2009-01-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NIU YEAR, ALL! (:

As you can see, only tunapet will take picture with me and i take snaps of my other sister. Ah but I have sneaky pictures of my 2nd sister sleeping, super hilarious HA HA HA But she'll confirm kill me cos its really unglam to some extent Haha. Day one of cny was the usual staying at home awaitin the arrivals of all relatives cos my ahgong ahmah stays with me. Goodies tempt me so much i've been havin the runs so much these days :/ anyhow eat anyhow eat lah. Day two todae was going to afew relatives' houses, do the usual, shakin hands greetings "happy new year" smiles COLLECT HONGBAO AND SIT DOWN AND EAT. haha thats really true cos we dun really entertain, perhaps just a few qns about studies, health, my new home and such. Cny rocks, rocks more since i've no school tmr and my sisters all packin their bags and sleeping HAHA.

So this week is still gonna be really exciting,..

Tmr i think im gonna be a pig and stay home heehee.

Thurs is 4IT Class Outing, hopefully a whole lot turns up!

Fri is still deciding, but night is chingay, whoo Jm!!!

....and more i think, stil plannin.

Im excited for next wk, but im afraid i wont be able to do though can attend. :( Its just some buddhist thingy, hard to explain but its damn fun to me, and im freakin excited, go thre every yr, but miss that almost every yr too. Aww man, i wish luck could befall me and let me be able to not miss it!!!

cai shen dao~~

2009-01-25T11:38:00.001+08:00

Cai Shen Ye HA HA HA.

eh dun laugh hor, i bet many many people this cny wishes for him to let them be prosperous and earn loads and loads and loads of cash and money and gold!!! Ayy, economic crisis worries the world. Many even said 2009 won't get any better. However, i feel its like kinda ironic in Sg leh. Like i dun see the crowd getting smaller since there's like economic crisis and more ppl shld be at home and eating bread spread with jam or something. Okay perhaps this is too absurd HAHA. Its like when i shop around Bugis, even the departmental stores like topshop etc the freakin crowd really pisses ppl off like shit. Even orchard road is filled with millions of humans-Shopping-Buying. I dun understand, my boss in Fareast said that crowd has become smaller and business is bad. But i feel its not lor, probably its just his shop got prob other shops are doing well like dunno what piang. Even many many patronised stores like LV, Gucci, Chanel, and Buying somemore. Really is Alot manz. Unbelievable,hmm. Perhaps the crisis ain't affecting us that much yet, but well, imma freakin student nothin to worry actually. I just gotta study well and ace my ALevels ya haha.

I typed a whole chunk of crap just for the sake of blogging zzz.

Okay lah, Cny's tmr, which means more pictures more details whoo.

Im rather excited, dunno why, still a kid perhaps.

Goodies, hongbaos, visiting, pictures, more goodies, more hongbaos, more goodies, chocs sweets, hongbaos again,more more ~~~ (smiles happily)

Right, im 16 turning 17 in 3 months, gotta grow up.

But, HEY! IM IN CNY MOOD MAH!!! (:

I miss you more than the air i breathe.

2009-01-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

I dont wanna talk about it, it makes me wanna cry

Everytime I pour out my emotions, I feel emptier inside

I dont know how to play it like im not in love with you, but i'll try

Even though I do still miss you, just like the air that I breathe

I need you with me. Im not gonna lie.

I can't imagine my life without you, but I...suppose I will survive.

Im not gonna play myself everytime my cell rings, checking for your name

I promise that i'll never tell you how I feel,

when I know that you dont feel the same.

Did you think that you can hurt me so? I just gotta let you go.

Everytime I find myself alone, Oh I miss you,

just like the air that I breath, I need you with me.

Im not gonna lie.

I cant imagine my life without you, but I..suppose I will survive.

Don't try to explain why your love's changed,

boy you really broke my heart this time

I wont let it take away my pride, of who I am inside.

Boy im torn between everything how could I feel nothing?

I would have done anything, if it would mean I could make you love me.

You're the one I need, but you still believe,we could never be...

And I miss you more than the air that I breathe,

I need you with me, Im not gonna lie.

And I can't imagine myself without you, but I..suppose I will survive.

(I'll be fine, don't worry about me, i'll be okay.)

What A Nice Song. Got it from Jasme's blog. Right perhaps im lagg alota you heard before but i fell in love with the music the lyrics and the voice immediately when i heard the song, how beautiful...awww. How meaningful.

Ps: no special intentions, dun get me wrong pls. (:

slam into your faces GAHHH

2009-01-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

I wanna blog about TFF outing. It was way fun haha. Went Marina Barrage, some ulu sight which Nat claims to have beautiful grassland and SgFlyer scenery. Cabbed over from Suntec cos no bus seems to reach thre. den realised we got cheated by nice online photos AGAIN ahhhhh. Had picnic on concrete land and took photos waited for Claire and instead went to Marina for movie HAHAHA What a picnic!!! And most kuku i wanted treat them using my free tickets but cant be used, "The Haunting Of Molly Hartley" is superrr not nice Pls Dont Watch. I felt ok during the show but the ending really makes you wanna stomp outta the cinema Gahhh manz. Shopping and chatting (gossiping nolah haha) till the wee hours. Awww TFF stil stays so strong yeah! Loveyall!!!

CNY's around the corner, no mood no feeling eh. The only thing is like shops are all blasting cny songs blah blah discounts everywhre quite loads of crowd arnd town and bugis people all getting cny clothes and goodies, Okay perhaps there IS mood afterall HA HA HA.

Im fascinated by accesories these days, ........
bought some at F21 & Diva, spent a bomb but im HAPPY (: Heehee.

Havta big sweep cupboard tmr and tmr havta entertain qns from relatives again. Sure ask about results whatever it is. I dun understand but i bet not everyone understands my intention of the school i chose. Yeah its lousy i know. But i have reasons and my own intentions, i need encouragement and some sincere words of support, not those expressionless faces which meant "oh, err that school is..err". I know it though you all dun show it. Im not mad, im just sad that that's what you all cared. And because of these faces and words that i see and hear, trust me, im gonna slam my qualification for nus into your faces. Really.

CNY whoo! = hongbaos, goodies, and FUN!

IMMA SUNSHINE LADAYE

2009-01-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

Im kinda tan now and suffering from sun burns aww!

Yay i fulfiled my wish of going to Sentosa with girlfrens to suntan and dip in water. HAHA dip in the sense cos i cant swim heh. Ze keeps temptin me to the deep areas while i scream and shout and held onto Nic i mean she's more trustworthy in that sense you see. Ze might throw me down and i might just err, die. HA HA nolah she wont bear to. heh. But the sun was super on off like when the dark clouds go away me and seh will like "Eh eh lai le lai le!" and we'll spread out and feel the heat HAHAHA. den it goes away not long after. im surprised i stil can get tan leh. Thereaft went Chongqing steamboat, ze sae its a package haha. Hot hot hot the steamboat damn hot omg ah. I struggled but was really exciting heehee. Clams and crabs whoohoo~ Yay i love outings! Esp with them! (:

I think they look very prettaye here!

Time flies like anything. Next week is CNY already. Which marks the start of some fun and getting of hongbaos and also the possbile rampant start of stress school new environment and such. Im stil so young and alive and kicking i wanna have more fun then just learning... :( Crap all i can at the end of the day i'll stil accept fate as how it is what. Crap what lah me ah.

I needa catch some sleep scanning makes me drowsy.

crazy sister!

2009-01-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

MY SISTER IS CRAZY!

Actually she prohibited me from putting up the photos but haha who cares lah so cuteee let her have some fame here with her lamo pictures heh heh.

Went out whole dae todae to like err 2 temples and Bugis to shop for cny stuffs. Actually im like almost done but my sisters are a hassle. the stuffs they like are....hmmm different heh. And its so hard to find lah tmd they two. Ayy. Mom and Grandma bought cny goodies and stuffs. Dad was busying chasing us home wlao shopping with him is like chasing some train lidat HAHA. Oh and ya ya ya i cut my frinch so kukulooking now i dunno why nvm it'll grow okay. :)

Tmr's sentosa outing with my dearests heh.

Hope all turns out fun, i hope siok attends dinner!

I need to spell things out.

seungri and me so pei so pei HAHA.

2009-01-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

Aww tmd i know this is embarrasing but.....

HOW COMPATIBLE!!! (SMILES~)

I cant stop smiling while looking at this image omg omg omg faints/.

I wanna put this as wallpaper for everything lah. How cute how cute! Okay i meant seungri not me okay fine fine. Awwwww man if only i could take a real picture with him, like he standing just right beside me and arms around my shoulders and smiling at me widely and giving me a yay sign and singing his lovesong and dancing his grooves aww aww awww IF ONLY!!!!!!

OMG I LOVE BIGBANG I LOVE SEUNGRI! muackmuackmuack!

Im getting used to this, somehow.

On the contrary, I want seungri instead HAHA.

JAE. Hit Jackpot.

2009-01-14T13:45:00.001+08:00

I've sumbitted my JAE form. It's kinda fast lah, but since i've decided i shld just get it over and done with ya. Hopefully, my first choice hits the jackpot. haha.
Went airport to meet ze jm seh and siok, chatted alot about all diff schools and stuffs. even managed to make seh abit willing to take up jc course hahaha she hates us. And went rbc after to eat dinner, been sucha loooong time there's like our all time favourite diningspot. Haha. Reached home at 11pm while they all showered sleep and shuang already tmd. Oh and im working again, for a few daes help my mom's colleague with some scanning stuffs. And we need outings,babes.

I think doing quizzes are fun leh. So im gonna do Claire's quiz hahaha.

1. The person who tagged you is?
Tander Clarissa Margaretha Brielle (so fun to juggle with)

2. Your relationship with him/her?
Love-hate. hahaha nolah! Lotsa loveeeee

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
Bimbotic, daoface, sweet, herjiuwo, heruniquefashionsense

4.The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Errr...talking to me when im down definitely. (:

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
"God has plans for everyone." (inserts hearwarming smile)

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
I wont date another girl forever.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
Hmmm dun be so dao! if not ltr i date with her, i think she bushuang me :(

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
I will cry!

9. If he/she dies, you will?
I will cry much more!

10. What is it you want to tell he/she?
LOVE YOU MUACK!

11. Your overall impression of he/she?
She's that kinda person who interests you at first look and always stays so niceee.

12. How do you think people around you will feel?
Huh? I dunno. Funny?

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Easygoing, nice, caring, helpful...(selfpraising words..)

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Trust people too easily and always gets hurt at the end.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
I wanna be myself.

16. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them.
thanks people i love you all too! (:

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people (i anyhow put no blog de also put lah hor)
1-Margaretha
2-Ze
3-Nat
4-Debi
5-Huilin
6-Nicole
7-Siok
8-Seh
9-Jm
10-Yinuo

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
HA HA HA HA im waiting for one too (winks*)

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
Female but sometimes acts like a male.

20.If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
OMG NO NO NO NO NO! They will fight all day i think. wait they can NEVER be tgtr.

21. What is no. 2 studying all about?
Babies. She's a pedo.

22. When was the last time you chatted with no. 3?
Err during chalet! HAHA chatted alot.

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 likes?
Cheena music. Luozhixiang etc.

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
Yeah a bro that buys her everything she wants (so jealous lah)

25. Will you woo no. 3?
If im a guy, I dun think so ba, she will eat me up :(

26. How about 7?
Also wont lah, she so tall make me no zi zun leh.

27.Is no. 4 single?
Ya manz but she has good relationships with many guys WOAH.

28. What is the surname of no. 5?
Loo Loo Loo.

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
Heh...last time studying ba, now err, gaming? and making his hair.

30. Do no. 5 & 9 get along?
I think so!

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
Pedophile babies school

32. Talk about something for no. 1?
Hello clarissa margaretha tander brielle (omg so fun!)

33. Have you tried developing feelings with no. 8?
I DEN DUN WANT! she will eat me up too.

34. Where does no 9 lives in?
Eh..Kovan

35. What colour does no.4 like?
BLUE BLUE BLUE like doraemon hahaha.

36. Are no. 1 and 5 bestfriends?
YEAH TFFs!! (:

37. Does no.1 have any pets?
I dun think so ba..do you?

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
HAHAHAHA OH YES WHOOWHOO!~

39. What is no. 10 doing now?
Err...i just called him to ask about jae den aft that i dunno what he doing :/

This is freaking lamo haha but took up some of my time so nvm HAHAHA.

What is affinity?Does it spells this way?
Damn like what ze said, the one and that one makes me luan only lah.
Just let things remain. Cos its hurtful and tiring to think about it somemore.

TEARDROPS ON MY RESULT SHEET HAHA

2009-01-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, it's better not to think too much. yeah?

Results time caused my tears to flood like some river haha. Honestly, i think i did badly though my results are average. Because it wasn't up to my expectations and im caught in btwn deciding the Jc or Poly route. I dun wanna waste time going into Jc with a justnice score and regretting aft a year den i cant handle. But i dun wanna feel wasted if i go Poly and not get in Jc which would land me well in a Uni perhaps. Im confused. I've interested courses in Poly and Dad's for Poly. Talked alot about this just now with him and realised that Poly isn't that bad afterall. What a weird dad hor. haha. Am glad parents are ok with my results. Take note it isnt that bad until cant go any Jc is just i dun wanna anyhow go one Jc just for the sake of going. I rather take up a good course in Poly den waste my time in Jc seriously. Ayy. The mark is just too confusing. :( Am heading to Ngeeannpoly tmr for course counselling with Dad and meeting dearest girls at airport after for chatchat and relax. Perhaps i can think better tmr.

Stupid You. or foolish me.

12 Jan is freaking tmr.

2009-01-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

12 Jan tmr. (screams*)

2HM Chalet was a splendid success, Didnt slept a wink for first night, had loads of fun with everyone. BBQing till the wee hours, heneiken boost, jokes, catchasemouse game that caused seh to did that funny forfeit, cardgames, gossiping, blackmagic which caught me blur for hrs, monkey and macdonalds ... .... blah blah blah. Had hell loads of fun with this batch of idiots. Can't believe aft 2 yrs of not being in the same class, we can still be so bonded and have fun tgtr. Im glad i was in 2HM even if that means my psle sucked haha. Love 2HM.

As how i started this post, im super worried for tmr. Butterflies in stomach, chest aches, breathing difficulties whenever i think about it. Okay i know its kua zhang but i dunno why im feeling damn nervous like shit. Actually, it doesnt matter if i enter Jc or Poly, but because of what other relatives and ppl will see and think, it become something which matters. Im in for anything, because at the end of the day, i just havta go Uni. I keep having bad dreams, once i close my eyes, i can totally depict the whole taking results scene in my mind. Haissss why so fast. I really am afraid if i didnt do up to what i want. Helppp! Meeting dearests tmr earlier for a calm injection first HAHAHA.
Wish myself and to those i care, Best of Lucks!

2HM CHALET COMES!

2009-01-09T11:23:00.000+08:00

(Coughs) Okay, left with coughing and flu. Body's much back to norm heh.
I stil have alot to do but i dunno why am i blogging here HAHA.
Grandma's marinating the food, im awaiting Ze and Siok 's arrival.
Sidetrack: I dun understand, we're like doing so much putting in so much effort yet paying seems so hard for some people. If money means so much den you come organise yourself lah. its not easy and im not gonna do it again. if not because Ze need help i would wash my hands off this and pay and attend the chalet, who wants to undergo the hassle of preparing and stil getting ignored by some people who doesnt seem to give a damn.
Tmr's relative's wedding dinner. My dress stil haven come die. Must hav alt plans.
I haven paint my half painted nails properly hahaha.
I need to come home tmr afternoon, or earlier. I hope mama can fetch.
Im just ranting..im coughing like siao and irritated.Argh.
All da best for chalet, hopefully all goes well, and well, all pay.

Seungriiiiiiiiiiiii~

2009-01-08T14:37:00.004+08:00

:( Im having a trauma now.
My Seungri is so intimate with that woman on his new music video! They look like in da process of doing it already lah Ahhhhhhhh!
He's mine how can he how can he!?!?!? Traumatised.
But on a side note, he's freaking hot in the video Omgomgomgomg. And i just realised he has abs whoo! Deb he has 6pecs lah freaking hot can and and gd is hot inside too HAHAHA. he looks damn sexy and cute at the same time. Fainting le fainting~~~ Hahahaha awww manz he really melts me heh. He really grown so much i cant believe he's only 18 Rahhhhh! FINE ITS JUST A DAMN VIDEO he's stil mine and i dun care if im just dreaming wahahahaha!
And anyway,
HE REALLY LOOKS DAMN HOT IN THE VID IM GOING CRAZY SOON!

Okay lah, show you all heh heh heh.

Tmd How can anyone look so hot and cute at the same time huh tell me!
(dreaming dreaming dreaming) Ahhhhh Seungri!!! (fainting)

CURE ME!

2009-01-08T12:54:00.000+08:00

Im sick, fever(subsiding) and flu and cough.
All thanks to sister's fren who spreaded the stupid disease to her,and then to me. How can I be sick?!???!?! I have so much to do so much so much!
Could have gone open house with Ze todae and she need not look for anyone frantically, I have 2HM Chalet on fri and wedding dinner on sat night i need my health back. And results are out on Mon, how fast. :(
Someone, Pls give me some magical pill that can cure me asap can!!!

I had so many weird dreams about results day. HAHAHA.

I need a clean break.

2009-01-07T00:43:00.004+08:00

I wasn't looking for this,

What is this? I don't know.

You know I was doing just fine

By myself, On my own

Tell me how to stop this feeling

I don't wanna fall in love

Just wanna have a little fun

But then you came and swept me up

And now I'm done, so done

Falling madly deeply

I surprised myself enough to fight

But what's begun is love

And now I'm done, so done

I can't imagine right now

Standing here without you

To think that I tried to ignore

What I felt, What I knew

I could never stop this feeling

I wasn't looking for this

Now I'm done, I'm done.

"From PCD's-Im Done."

Now I know that. I mean i've always knew, just a little bit more to my orientation of it. Afterall, its like trying to force open something that is shut closed. So all along, i was trying...well, trying way too hard. Its dumb, its stupid its even useless. Perhaps its really not me, but you. But this kinda thing is not up to even us to decide. I used to leave it to fate, i used to tell myself to have faith, i used to decipher, i used to imagine i used to even guess. I follow my heart more than my mind, that explains the more emotional side of myself. I think even if you had a choice, i wouldn't be any of them. Its not that im not trying hard enough, its just that no matter how hard i tried, in your eyes, you don't even want this, you don't even think about it. Im even confused if its my damn feelings or just memoirs of the past that lingers. Amazing,really,how one person can affect and change me. Perhaps this is reality and that leaves me with no choice too.

But anyway, just wanna tell you, __________.

BIGBANGBIGBANGBIGBANG!

2009-01-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

Everything is Big Bang.
Im glad i've them in my life.
My sister is doing amaths. and struggling. HA HA HA those days........
(i know that's a random insert.)
Big Bang completes me Ah.
Big Bang is my needs,not wants.
Ah. Big Bang. (:
Taking bus from the east back home kills. So damn long gah.
But i've Big Bang in my ipod, so nvm hah.
I just wanna rant about Big Bang. Oh Yay Big Bang!
I just changed my whole playlist to Big Bang's songs, All.
Seungri makes a difference. Because he's so special. And, mine. (evil laugh)
HA HA HA HA im living in fangirllalaland now.
Bigbangbigbangbigbangbigbang.La la la oh ah oh ah ah ah ah.

Kukuzehuimalu, Go out with me tmr ha.

Big Bang is VIP.

2009-01-05T17:35:00.001+08:00

Okay. Now, follow these steps.
Press the pause button of the music box.
Then click on this video, and watch it in HD version.

OMGOMGOMGOMG. I've never seen anything cuter than this. I know cuter this word does not exist, and this is what im trying to say. They are so cute that words cant be used to express their cuteness, Okay cuteness doesnt exist too. Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah! :)

Look at mini TOP the hair the eyes! Exactly the same kinda feel lah! And omg look at mini Taeyang the mini eyes and hair so cuteeeeeee. And out comes mini seungri,gd,dae. Aww mini seungri is so hyper and likes to show just like seungri HA HA HA and mini gd is so cool so hip and and mini dae ahhh looks so innocent and niceeee just like dae himself. The miniatures are splendid they really look like act like and feels like BB. Awwww super awesome this idea. I was giggling and smiling like mad when watching this they're all so cuteee the dance the exactly same outfit the expressions the kids the tgtrness. Awwww...~~

Deb and Tander, You gotta watch this its unbelievably cute!

And all others who might not like bb do check it out, look at the adult and the mini kids you would be sure to let out a nice laugh because the whole perf is really amazing incredibly cuteeee!!!

Oh and Im getting moneybrained for planning the food. Ah! :(

HARMONY CHALET WHOO CHALET.

2009-01-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT:

2HM'06 CLASS CHALET

Hi all Harmonians, if you come across here, pls do note that we're organising a chalet on 9th Jan-11th Jan. BBQ would be on the first night, and pls bring along 16 bucks for the BBQ and chalet. Pls also bring extra clothes and money for the next day activities. Do inform ZeHui if you're coming and haven't smsed her yet or you can tag here if you dun have her number.

Pls do make it and hope to see you all yeah! (:

how dark can dark be.

2009-01-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

I realised i got this really dumb picture. HA HA HA!

The scene was like "The Dark Side" of NTUC Management. Omg im laughing like shit. I was supposed to be the young secretary being bullied, then nic was the evil boss, siok was the scheming sexy lady worker that wanna paw on the boss, and ze was like "free excess". She was like Aiya I act the just go in de lah. Ya this is how dumb and siao we can be heh. We were like standing beside the door with the NTUC Management sign and eh let's take picture here! hahaha. Omg seriously, i feel that aft editing the pics tgtr, it looks funny.

Im hoping plans won't be ruined tmr, G.reat.

I dun want to stay another minute.

2009-01-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

I am mad.

I search for blogskins for the whole afternoon tmd.

How's that. Hahaha. Who cares lah Im bored. Nothing todae. But i just wanna blog and change. I realised my blog is always damn colourful and all. Gah but why isn't my mind as colourful ya? Ayy forget it. And the song, its beautiful. but it's too emo and i dun wanna rake up sad stuffs again but the song is really nice. I am really mad. I hav nothing to do. Tv doesnt attract me now Food does. But there's only chips. Im mad i dunno what to do. Many things running through my mind, but i feel like i've nothing to do still. Okay but on a side note, tmr's shopping with mom and sisters and next wk gonna have another date with girlfrens,yay!

Okay tv attracts me now along with chips bye.

Read this:

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs

I never needed pain, I never needed strength

My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements

I never needed you to question what I spent

I never ask for help, I take care of myself

I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

Meaningful, really. Reminds me of...forget it i dun wanna think about that anymore. But I know, the more i tell myself not to, the more it surfaces up. That day, i smsed everyone. Another replied, but i was waiting for another's instead. Im caught btwn myself you know. So many times already. I even made decisions for next year blah blah but what for? i want a clean stop, but i dunno how to. Just, forget? Thats not me, totally.

2009.2009.2009.

2009-01-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! (:

Well 2009, A whole new start a whole thing. Again, a brand new year.

It's weird how time flies like that, so damn fast. 2008 was like a gunshot, and out came 2009. Indeed like what all said, 2008 was spent mainly on studies due to Os, having fun(for me its true), taking stress, growing up, learning and more learning. 2008 was enriching and meaningful in a way, i completed secondary education, my lowest qualification is not longer PSLE but O'Level something much more significant ya, my last year of wearing white shoes white socks, ha and definitely seen thru many things and people respectively. 2008 was indeed quite a blast but im hoping that 2009 would be much better, with a new environment, new school but i want also my old mates arnd to round up my life.

A clear start would be Os results. It's kinda gonna determine the kinda life i would lead i guess. No matter what it will turn out, good or bad, i'll make sure i'll live it well live it right. And friends, definitely, esp my dearests, i would hope no, i would want everyone of us to stay strong tgtr, rmb our aft A'Levels plans ah? Yeah that's how far we wanna stay tgtr, and even longer.

So, Goodbye 2008. And, Hello 2009!!!

Bon Voyage Kohaha!~

2008-12-28T23:15:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Koha.

I wish you all da best in Atlanta and stay happy and well.

I'll miss you, miss the old days, miss the wonderful chairman of 4Integrity.

Out is the new In.

2008-12-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

My Girlfriends are the loveliest things.

Finally, a day's outing with dearests. But not all of us made it, Jm was gone, like, missing haha. And Seh only managed to join us for dinner, thus their disappearance from the pictures, but pls we're stil all as close and great frens, dun anyhow think. Went Orchard, met up first and Yes lah yes lah i was late again, by 1omins, i think i improved le lor Wahahah they're gonna kill me for saying this. Gaigai arnd in fareast (Imsickofthatplace). Totally engrossed ourselves in this accesories shop for like hrs lah, Siok was decidin which belt and bracelet to buy while I was busy explaining to ze since both of us buying how we shld make it profitable by getting another one blahblah and she was freakin blur Gah. Hahaha. Finally, paid and walk arnd. Sian of tht place seriously, is like my workplace how better can it get. Oh and ystd dress code was chio and loud Wahahahhahah suggested by yours truly. Headed off to Pasir Ris downtown east (my hometown!) to Sakura. Eat like hungry ghosts thre, we starved for that expensive dinner lah tmd. hahaha but was fun laughed joked gossiped bitched about everything. Oh and we saw Mr.Faizal but he dun let me put up the pic of he and ze, they super scandalous, ze thinks he's hot. :/ Ltr i cant get my Os results how, i den dun want take the risk haha. We were camwhoring like crazy ystd, took a million and one photos. Only posted some cos im superrr lazy. Just those i think i wanna put de i put. Crazy really.

The next get together would be Countown 2009 le ba.

Time flies like anything manz...poof and a year's gone.

My sister is staring at the com while im blogging, okay im random.

Im quite anticipating yet afraid of next yr...everything's gonna be diff.

My sister is stil staring. Why.

Okay and a new life alongside with new school new mates new house.

She's stil here, my sister i mean. stil staring and making noises.

I stil feel i'll be attached to those crazy fellas up there.

And i hope nothing's gonna change btwn us though.

Okay my sister has been staring at the com and me for the whole time.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS HO~

2008-12-25T01:31:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS! ~~~ (:

Hear the sound of the sleigh bells ring, await the arrival of old Santa.

Presents and wishes sending to all loved ones, and wishing all dears to have the best christmas night with shining stars and warming moonlight.

Gah.Spent the morning with nat and huilin for lunch. Deb, im sorry again, but im glad everything's okay now whee. Next meeting would be to send koha off ba. Hais Koha's gonna leave Sg for good and study in US le...though we were just 2 yrs of frens, but i'll miss this chairman alot his winks and niceness. thanks for being sucha great chairman, all da best for you okay! seeyou~ :D . Neway, Yepp we ate Swensens for lunch ahaha and it was raining and raining nonstop, even aft work. How nice. I hate rainy days, makes you drowsy, wets your feet, and smudges your makeup damn. So like i've concluded before, sunshine shines!

Im damnnnn tmdddd looking forward to Fri lah. finally getting to meet my dearests for some good shopping and a sumptous buffet dinner yay!! Cant wait like crazy omg omg so excited evryone's gonna like dress up prettaye and we're gonna take loads of pics (hopefully) and gossip and talk and play and have fun again. I miss all of them so much, though i see ze and siok almost evryday HAHAHA.

All that that means is neither of us is listening,

So both of us are mad for... Nothing.

We're fighting this war, when both of us are losing.

Woodlands is my new territory

2008-12-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

Bloggin for the first time from Woodlands HA HA HA :P

Gahhh mia-ed for soo long cos com has gone crazy again, so im now using laptop Damn. Went out with Siok todae to collect our pay from Jason wahaha he nvr changes stil so bubbly and nice, Glad to work for him, will feel that all the efforts are worth it. Even Jason praised us whoo!~ Yay manz. Hahaha Siok and I went to Bugis and Tm after that in search of our stuffs heh heh. Tmr's outing with Tff and work aft that. Fri another outing with babes whoo. This week is yay!~

Ok so about the moving here issue,hmmm Woodlands is far but food is just opposite and have alota shops and stuffs, kinda convenient hehheh. Siok was damn worried we'ld be distant lah! i really dun mind going down lah, its quite convenient just...very long. Hahaha. This house is much bigger, talk also got echo and i feel like im in chalet lah, super nt used to it yet. But i guess as time passes, i'll officially turn into an authentic woodlander ba.

Tmr gotta wake up superrr early, seeyou Tff!~ (:

Pasir Ris is history.

2008-12-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

Im seriously....officially....zhendelly...gonna...be an ex Pasir-rian. :(

I have loads of mixed emotions lor. Like the thought of leaving these precious ppl arnd me in the East side, though Sg is small but having to travel back here takes me like an hour or so. i need determination to come back lah. Jc choices would definitely be very diff since im like at the other side of the country now..Ayyyy. Kinda attached to this house i've been here since 1 year old, staying for 16 years, knowing all the neighbours so well, pri school mates all living arnd me. best fren since prischool weixin just a few blocks away, im so gonna miss her lah. the days when we just give each other a call and meet at our laodifang at a voiddeck near our flats. Haissss. and bestbuds in secsch all living arnd her, tamp bedok pasirris kovan, tff parkway serangoon geylang, all at the east or near east. and relatives arnd here. no matter what, im gonna make an effort to come back here even if im gonna get all worn out and tired, but for my girls, i will. although im sad, im also kinda excited lah. went over to woodlands to see the house, v clean and nice lor, like a total new environment, kinda excited for it also lah somehow. i just superrr bushede my mates here lor. Ayyy.

Oh and comp is gonna be taken over there first, so i will be mia from the internet till next mon already. No com...Ahhhh! Sianzations. so the next time i blog, i would be at the newhouse already. HA HA HA.

Gah tmr me and Boss only, again.

Im stil scared like the gowns(ah!) and the way i entertain customers, i feel that he just dun like me lor. whatever i do is like he dun agree de lor,even when i feel i think an okay job in serving them,he dun seem to appreciate...but im just gonna work, do what i shld, and get my cash yeah. (: and tmr i've Siok in the building too, moral support heehee. So seeyou blog in woodlands.

I MISS YOU LAH ZE BONG!

2008-12-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

I MISS KUKUMALU GOHZEHUI. :(

Look at her face..so kuku. But i like her kuku face cos it never fails to make me smile whenever im upset or unhappy about anything. Hais you know what? We havta like call each other every single day without fail to talk even for a few mins and we call like many times a day. I miss her voice i miss her signature laughter i miss her spastic actions i miss her kukuness i miss her short chubby fingers i miss her nag i miss her talks i miss her philosophy i miss her actfierce i miss her encouragement i miss her i miss her i miss her soooo much :( Come back lah Ze stop savouring tea and eating chinese cuisines at shanghai lah! Arrrgh...But i want presents!~Heeeeee (smiles widely) WA HA HA HA.

The color of this post stil her fave lor, see i so nicee :P

Tmr Gv Roadshow again. More signups more more. Heh.

Must impress Jason HAHAHA.

Ah Yayness and Booness to last wk of Gv.

Woodlander-to-be HA!

2008-12-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHH!

OMG Im so freaking busy and tired these daes.

If you're guessing its cos of work, you're wrong wrong.

Work's alright, GV this week is the last already. Mixed emotions, happy cos im finally getting my pay and dun need face stupid arrogant customers no more, sad cos this job is fun leh and v enriching get to see alota diff kinda ppl and shuaige HAHAHA and i'll miss my bubbly until cannot manager Jason!

HAHAHAHA hais how leh? I think i'll take pics on last dae, can keep for memories hahahahaha :P we're like kinda preparing alota qns to ask Jason aft that!

And Guess what?

Im officially gonna be a woodlander in a week's time. Damn fast lah. House is packed with cartons and more cartons I cant wait to go thre and lead a normal life soon! Everyday just pack pack and such, damn sian. Went thre to see see ystd night, i like my new wardrobe and kitchen whoo dearests you guys can come and cook leh!!! HAHAHA. and the study room is nt bad too lah hahaha quite anticipating my life thre...hmm, gonna be a great change.

And i seriously need cash. :/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEESEUNGHYUN!

2008-12-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

JOYCELYN SCREAMS

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SEUNGHYUN~!"

Hello Baby!~ Zomg how shuai and cuteee can you be lah seriously! :) Happy birthday maknae of Bigbang!!! You're awesomely cute and funny and definitely the baby of the group. I hope all the hyungs will treat you better and appreciate you for who you are. And really, bigbang wouldn't be complete without you baby! I hope you have had a wonderful birthday (with me?!) HAHAHAHAHA! Awwww stay shuai and cutee and mineeee! heh heh Loveyousomuch,muacks!~

突然锋利的回忆.

2008-12-11T17:40:00.001+08:00

Yayness to no work ystd and todae wheeee~

HAHAHA.

Went towning and kbox ystd with Ze. Wlao stupid Kbox cheat my cash always lidat de their stupid system i dun even wanna bother to explain le lah. Gahhh! :( Ayyy den went Pastamania eat dinner ahhh been a long time since we go out like this already manz. heh glad we manage to go out before ze goes overseas. Wonder what am i gonna do with her absence for the whole freaking week lah tmd tmd tmd why go holiday! Okay better not let her see this ltr she thinks i will really miss her Wahahaha. And ignore the poor pic quality, my phone sucksssss...

Christmas decos all over. Christmas mood coming le whoo yeah. But guess what, im like working on that day :( sianzations right. hais You can be a kind soul and come visit me at far east if you pity my plight HAHAHA :P ayyy nvm got cash got cash we can celebrate Christmas on another dae too whoowhoo~

Where are my dearest girlfrens?! We need outings my dears!!!

Oh oh oh and went Airport todae to send Tander off. :( awww man WHY MUST YOU GO TANDER! We haven even meet up and partaye yet lah! Im gonna miss you hell lots like i only met you twice during the hols can! :( awwwww nvm dun miss me too much okay haha love you deep deeep deeeeeeep!~~~

Talked alot with Ze ystd again. I realised she's right about somethings to afterall i need to make a choice. its not about what the ending or outcome will turn out to be, its more of like what i havta make myself certain. Haisss but its really really hard. i dunno what im thinking also.

Vivo Roadshow tmr. I wanna more quotas more signups yay. (: Okay i realised i didnt take any shots of Vivo there. Let me try to take some tmr its like the grandest roadshow compared to ps and tamp's environment lah hahaha although its quite a small corner only heh.

I NEED MORE CASH im damn broke now,

Fareast boss needa give me pay soon pls!

WHY MAKE ME CHOOSE LEH.

2008-12-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Just a short post since i have no pictures :/

Ahhh blog is getting borin with me working and not having enough pics HEH.

Im damn elated these daes cos dearest girlfrens made my day.

Claire and deb and their frens came arnd to vivo and signed up for membership HAHA they were damn on lah like amanda was " i dun see the reason not to sign up for this! " So shuang if only all of those other people out there thinks the same way as you, our lives would be wayyyy better HA. (: And I was shocked cos Claire was like " can i sign up? " and i stil answered " oh ya okay " and lifted my head just to see her that naughty laugh! hahaha awww i miss her so much and im glad she's all happy and fine again. and deb! whoo see her twice in a row so happy tooooo!~ Ha and and next dae work at fareast and huilin came with her sisters omg huilin i think you shld verify with your mama lor, You all dun look alike at all can! HAHAHA. And she was like talking to me whilst my boss looking thanks for coming down and im so glad i see your that kuku face again!!! Okay tff outings pls pls pls!!!

Had a talk with Ze on the train ystd.

She made me wondered about that, well yeah that. I mean shld i really make a choice? The thing is im damn unsure of myself too. and i do not feel the need to make the choice for any. its like so what if i made one? does it make any difference? i seriously doubt so. as much as i hope for change, as much as faith and affinity spoils my hope you see, so i rather just stand here and stay at this point of how things are like. Gah im confused but i prefer things at this moment.

Vivo roadshow tmr again whoo~

Siok and I have new plans to attract members. HAHAHA.

We wanna impress mah have like alota signups numbers. heeeee~

Okay praying that Ze can get day off, we can go out gaigai singsong walk walk whooo i wanna go partaye!!! ~~~ Okay i realised this post is quite long heh.

Girlfrens make my dae much brighter.

2008-12-06T02:17:00.003+08:00

Ahhh work at Plaza was freaking boring and....sucks to the core manz. I wont ever wanna be shifted there ever again Gah. People there are like full of themselves and so snobbish. They act like rich asses when they're some ordinary humans that demands much beta offers with free membership Omg. And those stupid faces i see when i approach the crowd, so freakin rude and yucks pls im working for gv not you, i dun need to entertain your shit. sales were bad cos connection died now and then and ppl were un-enthu yuckkkk.

Vivo crowd is way nicer :)

But nvm tmr im back at Vivo again whoo whoo~

Can't wait to work with Siok again, wayyyy more fun.

BUT ANYWAY, I GOT A WONDERFUL SURPRISE TODAE!

Okay lah not really a surprise but i was so glad she came around.

Ha DEBI I LOVE YOU DEAR! (:

Thanks alot for coming and talkin to me,

And givin me the chio bigbang stuffs! wheeee.

You actually made me felt better somehow aft talking lah,

But i hope you understand and im glad you did.

Thanks deb i need that and it came from you.

THE BIGBANG STUFFS WERE AWESOMELY CUTEEE OMG IM TOTALLY CRAZILY IN LOVE WITH THEM NOW! TELL ME WHO WONT LIKE THEM! THEY'RE HOT AND CUTEEEE AND AWESOMMEEEEEEE AHHH!~

Hais...You really misunderstood me my dear.

How i wished you knew, if only you knew i didnt meant that.

Im serious. You really got the wrong idea.

Forget it, since always, its like that.

Im tired of explaining when you dun even really bother.

But just to let you know, i bother and i meant well.

I didnt meant anything any sort that's running thru your mind now.

Ya...if only you knew, its always....if only you knew.

Okay work's gonna numb me again.

Im grateful i've got a bunch of wonderful girlfrens who nvr fails to understand me and listen and hear me every single time.

Tmr's supper with my dearest girlfrens,

Loads of catching up, i miss those days :(

I need loads of lucks tmr pls!

2008-12-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

Im damn scared of tmr. :/ Gah.

Boss and I tending the shop only.

Im afraid im gonna do a bad job in anything.

What if this what if that...

Oh dear i scared i cant rmb how to tie the dresses.

I scared ltr i dunno whre to get the stocks.

I scared the things i say are wrong.

I scared the way i approach customers are weird.

Omg omg omg Im Just Damn Worried about tmr.

*Crosses fingers*

Pls dun come try gowns tmr, try also try i can make it de pls.

Pls be nice customers tmr if not im so so dead.

Wish me luck Gah.

Though you're just a boy.

2008-12-02T01:58:00.002+08:00

Sidetrack:

I actually typed a long rant but deleted it, decided it was beta not to sae out. I admit im not feeling any good now aft seeing that. I dun understand why things go this way. I dun understand if all along i've been wrong in the way i do things.

Haiyoyo my goal maybe cant satisfy le lah...:(

Ze sae suntanning is bad for the skin is it is it is it?

But i wanna leh...hmmmmm nvm see how first heh heh heh.

When's next outing with my babes!? IMISSTHEMLIKECRAZYLAH.

Im gonna plan plan plan liao.

I want more more more outings leh.

Work is boring ha but i got paid todae so quite shuang.

But sian i think i haveta work on Christmas, sigh

haveta replan everything gah.

And i wanna sae BigBang is getting hotter and cuter each dae!

Omg omg omg love them so muchhhhh~

" Na nereul Saranghae~ (I LOVE YOU GIRL) "

Awww.... Im in fangirl land heeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeee.

And stil have stil have...

Oh tmr is Gv Roadshow again,

how come i nvr see any familiar faces de?

Come support me leh! HAHAHAHA.

And hor todae...was......eh hmmmmm not bad HA.

But im kinda well..heh Glad. (:

I dun care my next plan is go towning and wear prettaye prettaye.

I need time and more cash but then AYYYY.

Suntanning desires. whoo

2008-11-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

I have a new goal.

I wanna go suntan suntan suntan.

I'm gonna become a tan girl that can't swim HA HA HA~

Go Go Goal Ole Ole Ole ~~~!

2008-11-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

Im freaking tired lately, Hais.

4IT Soccer outing todae at The Cage. HAHA So cool hor this kinda outing also have heh heh :P Oh well overslept, Okay lah is i purposely off the alarm cos i was damn tired, almost cant wake up. Changed and trained to kallang. Took bus11 from the weird one stop interchange thre and reached The Cage. Wlao what kinda place is that, i missed my stop cos it was my first time thre mah, den i had to like walk damn tmd far lah! and even shouted to an uncle for directions cos he was across sweeping inside the cage HAHAHA heng he was nice and taught me the way by shouting back heh heh heh. Went in and cant believe that rundown cage cost 50bucks an hr wlao. Soccer-ed and sweat hor means i got use strength de can. hahaha Had fun though.

Then aft, went to Kallang Leisure Park to have lunch. I ate some chicken shredded porridge Yummy. (: Den arcade-ed whoo photohunt basketball and parapara damn hilarious i looked like a robot and they laughed at me :( evryone had a try even weisiang! HAHA But he was de pro-est hor dun play play manz!!! Then more photohunt we keep trying to hit the highest score like about 10 ppl playing tgtr hahaaa it was awesomely fun!

And then we had freaking loads of attempts of camwhore sessions Wahahahaaaa...

Realised i have alota pattern in the photos whereas others are all the same smiling faces HA HA HA how dumbo can i look yeah.

Gv Roadshow tmr again.

Work work work.

Numb numb numb.

I wanna use this way to slowly forget, stupid uh.

But this seems to be the bestest formula to make me feel better.

I dun want no drama no more.

2008-11-25T23:31:00.001+08:00

I told myself I'll try, again.

I thought what she said was right.

I thought oh perhaps i was the one thinking too much.

Once and again, the same thing unfolds.

I will wdh find out or see something that breaks my heart.

It's always the same.

I know i dun feel that way for that person

but why am i shaking aft seeing that?

I keep telling myself im all but living in a self-made lie.

I keep wanting to break free from it,

but somebody pls tell me the best antidote for this.

It hurts to always keep undergoing the same kinda pain.

Im sick and tired of doing the same thing over and over again.

But reality has it that, this always happens to me oh me.

I said its unfair. But then?

It stil remains the same. Nothing's ever gonna change.

" As she drove away she starts to smile,

Realized she hadn't for a while.

No destination, she drove for miles

Wondering why she stayed in such denial. "

Ya right, WHY.

Why have i always stayed in such denial?

Im not ignorant. But i believe im stupid.

Feelings count alot for me.

Yes You can sae im an emotional person.

So i get affected really easily.

But for so long, it has been affecting me.

I will stop and tell myself, hey my dear what the hell are you doing?!

But the next day i know, i'll smile and again somehow.

It's not that i neglect or run away from it,

But the more i try to face it the more it hurts to me.

I wanna face it as much but my heart and mind doesnt tally.

I hate myself for always living in this agony.

I self made it i agree.

" 'Happily Never After'

That just ain't for me

Because finally, I know I deserve better after all

I'll never let another teardrop fall. "

To You, I dunno what's going on within me i can say.

But I know its hurting me alot.

But I know things are diff in your case,

So why shld i continue to be like this?

HA If only i can be stronger than i am now.

Will i really be much happier then?

Work work work!

2008-11-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

Haaaaa working days for me has finally begun.

Hmmmm glad that i get to sit when im tired ha unlike Ze her's freakin tedious she haveta stand like damn 8 hrs! Evryday off le see her face sure black de lor HAHA. Boss is kinda strict but funny but stil strict and abit fierce dunno leh but im scared of him :/ The other full/parttimers are niceee. Taught me alot, like how to serve and such. Esp the most unique thing bout the shop, I gotta learn how to tie the diff ways of many types of dress Wahhhh! Gonna memorise the diff methods...:( reminds me of SS having to memorise stuffs. heh heh heh. Work is alright lor...two days passed only, realised that by sitting/standing there, can see alota diff kinda ppl walking arnd orchard their outfit their race their nationality HA HA HA. Good experience. JIAYOU LAH ZE! I know you're tired, but these days will end and we'll realise we learnt and gain much more than we expected!!! (:

Tmr's first dae for GV Roadshow thingy. At vivo,plaza and tamp, so people if you'd like to be the movie club's member and stand to gain a free beach mat pls do come down from 2-8 to sign up yeah! HA HA HA Like doing promo lidat. Im kinda excited for tmr, i hope its gonna be fun and people are enthu in signing up whoo! ~~~

Pri school chalet gathering.

Pri School mates! If you happen to see this, pls note that there'll be pri school chalet gathering in early dec do let me know if you can make it yeah! Or sms any others to find out more!

Okay im doing alota promos here HAHA. Pardon me. Working habit uh promote sell promote more sell more heh heh heh.

Oh and I think I'll be going soccer outing with class this thurs..hmm weird I CANT EVEN KICK THE BALL NICELY INTO THE NET LEH! Buttt...for the fun and laughter and to have fun with the class members again, I'll oblige :(

I'll post pictures up again..soon...

HAPPYBIRTHDAY AHLIN~!

2008-11-21T21:52:00.003+08:00

Yeah! I found another job already. But havte sae okok pay and working hrs lor. Place is kinda far though HA HA But aiya i give up le lah..got den do lor..and Ze is like in another shop tooo!~

Went for the Gv Roadshow Briefing todae. Realised the Jason guy is really as nice as his voice HA HA HA :P Actually, Im quite excited for that job, like its gonna be really fun and exciting! Whats more im with ahsiok!!!

Both jobs require me to interact with people and talk (MY FAVE!) HAHA So i hope i can do a good job outta it heh. I just hope i wont tire myself out somehow though.

Oh and HuilinDBabe If you see this...;

(Points below)

HAPPY SWEEEEEET SIXTEEEN!~~~

Okay i know its tmr but this is for youuuu.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

My dear, You're another year older heh but stil younger than me WAHAHA. Though im older than you, our height diff is like hais..dun talk about it heh. I wish you all da best for Os results next yr and get into your desired school yeah! And may you and your ahem last loooooooonggggg kay! And stay bubbly and fun like you always do! Lucky 2 yrs ago, i sat behind you and you approached me and talked, You gave me alota fun and laughter these two yrs and i really appreciate everything you've done and kept for me. Thanks for always being beside me whenever what happens. You're really an uberrrr great fren! I Love You Dearrr~ May you enjoy yourself to the fullest on this special day of yours and smileeee (:

Busyyyyy days starting soon.... :/

I said let go but i kept hanging here.

2008-11-19T20:07:00.001+08:00

Went to fareast (AGAIN!) Gahhh im sick and tired of that place AHH!

I dunno two chances make/break im not sure of their choices still.

Yeah i cut my hair liao!~

Okay,about ystd---->

Finally, went to cut hair with sisters and mom. Earned a little 20bucks from the meetup HA. Mrt-ed down with sister to Orchard and snipsnapsnip I FINALLY CUT MY LONG AND MESSY HAIR after waiting for like half a freaking yr Gah! :/ heh heh heh. Ate Sakae Buffet first time with fam though. Realised my dear girlfrens are much much better eaters lah! My sister is just obssesed with Chawanmushi and the other with sushimaki while me and mon savour sashimi HA HA! (: Went to fareast walkwalk (omg i go thre almost everyday now cos of job finding/interviews) crazy. Went down to Robinsons cos Mom's company got event thre and there's storewide sale or something...Hmmm bought Dad's present-Adidas Bag,Bought essentials like undergarments heh heh. Reached home arnd midnight and finished my tangxinfengbao. Wdh its freakingggg nice people do watch it manz! (:

Here's down, a series of lamo photos HEHHEH.

Alright i know the photos are kinda spastic HA HA HA But who cares i haven posted pics for a longgg time heh. Okay so ystd was great and tiring though i wanna sleeeeeeppp.

Confirmed a job as roadshow promoter but only for four weeks every week 3 days. Relatively ok pay. But stil searching for another one so can earn more $$$ heh heh heh. Wish me lucks! (:

Just now upon seeing the name there, I stumbled. My heart did a flipflop. I dunno if i shld click on it Im afraid. I dun wanna affect myself again. It's been so long. I mean it showed me something already, it showed me you're not here somehow you know. I mean I dun wanna guess i dun wanna know cos im afraid i won't be happy like how i am now. I dun deny anything but im unsure of myself still. Aiya im just stil stuck here dunno wdh im doing and all.

Dying inside cause i can't stand it

Make up break up can't take this madness

We don't even really know why

We said let go but i keep on hanging on

Inside i know its over you're really gone...

Roadshow Briefing tmr.

Playing at Ze's house before that HA HA HA!

Superhumannn

2008-11-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

HI WORLD.

Oh Yeah Oh Yeah ~ Life now is flexible and relaxing whoo shuang. Heh heh. Sleeping late and waking up when the sun shines till my butt is relatively common. But i like, must replenish back all the energy wasted ha ha ha.

Went to meetup someone on Mon at tm and asked Ze along. Ate QiJi, woah long timeee le manz. Den decided impromptu to prank Siok by going up her house to find her. Took a long time cos her house like ambushed inside many buildings lidat, damn blurrr... Reached and practically scare her guts out! HA HA HA She was freaking shocked to hear her mama sae " Girl ah! Your friends are here!~" Omg her face damn funny upon seeing us, like thinking it's a dream or what lah!!!! :D Played with her little niece and nephew, Ze benefitted most of cos. Kids leh, her Number1 lor... Whilst i use her new bought com happy dao~

Her niece is gonna be one chio prettaye lady next time i tell you.

" My only weakness is you

Only reason is you

Every minute with you

I feel like I can do anything "

Somehow i dun wanna it be over yet. But i know i cant help it right.

Goodbye is really...painful.

2008-11-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hi All, Im back from 4IT CHALET!

Day1:

Met up with Huilin and Nat at whitesands arnd 7pm plus and had our dinner. Rushed off to costa sands cos we thought night walk is starting soon. Reached and waved to all class members present. HA HA HA. Slacked arnd in the air conditioned room with chit chatters all arnd the two rooms. This year's chalet is at Costa Sands Pasir Ris, bigger room and bigger space, Much much better than last yr :/ . Yan Bing called and Yinuo separated the groups up and we prepared to all hail for Nightwalk! Yeah~~! Whole bunch of wonderful Integritians headed to Pasir Ris Park as we anticipate the fear and excitement (At First). Mangrove was the first station. Tmd it was damnnnn dark at first. Koha WanJing Yinuo Claire and I were tgtr in a group. Entered the mangrove with hands held on tightly to each other and staying calm. Searched for yellow lightsticks and our Group's envelope for mission2. In the end we took Group3's envelope (Oh btw we're Group1) and headed to Station2-Maze. HA HA. Went in as one chain went out scattering, All too anxious to win HA! Koha hurt and sprained his leg in the maze But wonderful Girlfren who's best at healing ppl's wounds stayed by him while Claire Yinuo and I headed off to Station3-Stadium. Did some cute games thre, eating tangerines and skipping tgtr. Followed by heading off to last station-Playground. Awesome. Had to find Rach's picture which is scattered into fours arnd the playground. Okay at least we're not the Last but we got karma for taking Group3's envelope WA HA HA HA. Went back to Chalet but come on its first night, couldn't sleep. Kboxed with Nat using com and had a little nap in the morning. Oh btw Deb went Korea liao! I'll miss you dearrrr!~

Day 2:

Tired and exhausted Omg. Bought bbq food and Ate subway brunch with TFF and headed back to Chalet to join others for games at the beach. Played water bombs and stepping on each other balloons kinda game. Weather was awesome again. Slight drizzle and breeze, shuang dao~. Played Blow-Wind-Blow and many scandalous and funny suggestions of what to blow HA HA HA. Played ZhongJiMiMa and pranked outsiders Omg esp HanJie his was the funniest He damn on!!! Headed back to chalet to prepare for bbq stuffs. Had freezebites like siao whilst cutting the meat with WanJing. Fire unsuccessful once again and had next door neighbour helped us ( Heng lah! ) If not no food makan lor i bet heh heh. Was a great night while eating talking chitchats playing twister...... Lasted till midnight and i showered. Suddenly got huge commotion. The toilet window frame almost killed me the whole bottom part dropped off Heng I ming da if not sure dead now :/ . Another class bombed us. Closed and locked all windows and doors HA HA Like kampong got race riots lidat Freaking Scary. Okay but im stil glad i survived the bomb hitting the toilet window Oh my head my head. Watched Magadascar at 1am. Laughed like shit lah! Damnnnn nice show! Highly recommended people! (: Headed back to chalet and slept like pig was freaking tired already mah. Heh heh. Woke up at 9am this morning how shuang!~

Day 3:

"Hello hello" Voice officially gone. I sound hoarse and deep now :( heh heh. Ate traditional breakfast Hao Chi! Went WildWildWet and conquered my fear--The slides! HA HA HA. I cant swim mah. Had loads and loads of fun there. Foam and water and more foam and more water and screaaaaaamsss HA HA HA. Headed back to Chalet and showered. Nat and Claire left earlier then. Been a nice girl and walked out alone to buy lunch for those in da room How nice me! (: Played mahjong!!! All time favourite heh :P And somehow i became Ziyi's lucky star there was a game whre we totally like helping each other and giving each other pai and ended he won HA HA HA totally pissed HanJie and JiaJia off thought we aimei or something!~ HAAAAAA. Im Sorry. heh. Ordered Pizza and bought drinks for dinner. Had last mahjong game with me winning heh heh heh! Waved goodbye to all (sobbing in the heart) and headed out with Huilin JiaJia Kevin and Kah. Took a bus back and here I am.

Three daes were short and meaningful and lively. Actually I realised 4IT is forever 4IT. We never changed and we will never. I could still feel the ever so strong class spirit. Everyone playing and enjoying tgtr regardless of anything. Evryone laughing smiling and playing happily. Tell me what's the best in the class, it is to have such awesome classmates like you all Integritians. These 2 years being in da best class was the best i could never have expected Really! Evry single moment spent in the class are all so precious and memorable. I love you all for giving me such wonderful memories and for being such wonderful classmates. I've to admit 4IT is da bestest class everrrrr~ I'd never be so siao and fun without you all. Promise a next chalet gathering next year kay! All must come ah! (: If possible and im free..., No wait, I'll organise it so people, wait for my call!

Im feeling so emotic and upset now. I'll miss you guys. I love 4IT-for life!

Photos would be up after Claire and others uploaded cos my phone sucks now gotta change sooon heh. Omg omg omg i cant help but feel awfully upset bout leaving you guys....我真的不舍得呀! :(

"Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me

Though its the hardest thing to say

I'll miss your love in every way

So say goodbye, But don't you cry

Because a true love never dies"

Cant help but hum this song again...Bond and love within 4IT never dies!

I miss my girlfrens too, When's next gettgtr my dears? Planning.....~~~

Oh and I realised I could kinda forget when im doing my stuffs, but.....

Im still feeling freaking tired off to sleep heh!

CHALET CHALET CHALET!

2008-11-14T13:06:00.001+08:00

4IT Chalet in like a few more hours time.

Will be meeting Huilin Nat arnd evening for dinner before heading off to meet integritians! Woahhh cant wait~! (: Nightwalk might be too scary for me to conquer and BBQ Ah! I love fooood! Yeah Yeah Yeah and games games talk talk play play camwhore camwhore. I really wanna see the last time 3IT lidat, everyone being so enthu and high and crazy and talking non-stop our favourite habit! (: I hope its gonna be realllllly fun because it might be the last get tgtr already :(

I'll miss Integritians,its the craziest class i've ever been in. HA HA.

( Might be back on Sun. )

Ze's out to Genting too.

Hey dear!~ Enjoy yourself kay!

Let's hope to await the good news aft you come back! heh heh heh.

On another side note, Im stil looking frantically for a freaking Job :/ Hais.

FUND ME A JOBBBBB~

2008-11-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

To the W to the O to the A to the H.

Gahhhhh! Like finally, Os are oh so over! Whooo~ Damn shuang this feeling. totally feel like doing the shove away books action but thought about the picking and clearing up after that, hmmm abit not worth it hor HA HA. Im soooo glad its all over, though i still have the momentum of opening up the mahjong table and taking out my notes to study Wahahaha. Too used to it le manz afterall it has been a freaking month long. Exams and stress are rolling on, the sudden relaxation stuns me hmm. But im still happy heh. Highfived with Jacie and Deb right aft the paper this morning lah! Hahaha. Bio mcq was da paper im more ok with though, weird heng i didnt give up in the end manz. Chem was screwed like gah :/ Physics hard to sae. Worried for combinedhumans no time to finish. sciences are all unpredictable. Whatever it is, let's leave our emotions for next yr Jan when results are released. All i wanna do now is have a gooooood rest!

Dad fetched me home and rushed out right after to meet Ze Siok Nic and Seh for gaigai session Ha. Omg todae we walked like we nvr walked before tmd! All becos of seh sae want walk to mrt station anyhow anyhow walk till we go round in circles omg our legs almost broke Siok even had a rather big blister hah! Superrrr tired no shou huo but siok open-big-kill-jie again. Haha, planning for next outing coming up. In the meantime, im looking high and low for a freaking job. All awaiting no news cant start omg pekchek. :(

Siok was actually finding the shortest route but still we ended up walking non-stop! Haha she was stoning whole dae cos she didnt sleep the whole night due to her class chalet. Talking about that, tmr is our class chalet tooooo!~ woahhhhhh excited dao~! Last gettgtr for Integritians we must play hard and fight hard okay! HA HA HA (: I miss our enthu and crazy spirit lor! now Os over le pls do let those siao genes of ours come backkkkkkkkkkkk! (:

Im trying, to wash off these memories. But still thinking, memories shld be left to keep, isnt it? I dunno. I dun feel anything but i wanna rmb everything, it was great. But i dun want an renactment again stil because this time im really serious to do what i've decided.

I dun want i dun want i dun want!

But sometimes, i cant help it :/.

I WANNA SLEEP I AM SO DAMN TIRED MY LEGS ARE ACHING!!

I AM MRS LEE SEUNG HYUN.

2008-11-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

I wanna post two posts I dun care cos i wanna rant about My New Love. (:

....

Yeah!~ Big Bang is back! B-I-G BANG BANG!

Oh Yes all thanks to debi's positive influence im hooked onto this boyband, Bigbang. Heh. (:

Omg they're freaking hot and cuteee...really. And they are not those simple korean boybands you always see pls. Their live performances are two thumbsup and they are all superrr fun to play and work tgtr with. Gahhhh...Im totally in love with them. I cant resist not hearing their voices a day and their songs are all superb...All bai ting bu yan! Seriously people, listen to Bigbang they're i proclaim they BEST korean boyband till date. Ahhhhh.....! While Claire dreams over TOP and Huilin snatches wif her and Deb lusting after Jiyong........,

Mrs.LeeSeungHyun hereby presents MrLeeSeungHyun..!

Hi Darling!~ heh I dun care if im dreaming or what, He's so cute so cute so cute.

These pics are some to let you get happy while seeing his oh-so-cute-i-wanna-smile face heh heh heh. The others shall be left for me to admire. :P

Seungri is mine oh mine!!!

Oh-sogonnaendsoon-OhLevels.

2008-11-10T19:10:00.001+08:00

Check Yes Oh-Levels,

In three daes time You're so getting outta my life!

Wahahahahaaaaaa was feeling really bored so decided to blog a little since i've like tonight and tmr to practice for chem & bio. tsktsk. Thinking bout this makes me bu shuang lor. Wed will be like freedom day for most ppl except Bio students :( I dun mind having Bio like tmr manzzz. Ahhh nvm one dae only wont die heh :P After Os i tell you I've like sooooooo much to do i cant get enough of ranting them out every single day Gah! I wanna a job with nice pay and nice working hrs and good place heh. I wanna hang out with girlfrens until the wee hours. I wanna do things i've done before heh. I wanna have endless chats with Girlfrens. And chalet chalet! And I wanna partaye all day long with Girlfrens, lets go those places we listed down HA HA, and wear prettaye prettaye and all go out gaigai happyhappy!

Woahh these days are coming back, Oh yes they are and even better.

"Hello Yi Ning!~"

This is my cuteee little cousin who stays at my house from Mon-Fri like childcare lidat, however provided with meals endlessly, loads of care and love, and tiny pinches from naughty sister me heh.

Oh-Levels.

2008-11-06T13:10:00.001+08:00

3 MCQs paper left.

13 November 2008. Here I come.

On a side note, today's eclit was tough tmd. :(

jiayou ppl!

2008-10-02T18:54:00.002+08:00

Tmr is Last Dae of school.

Damn im like counting down every single day. Haha.

I'll remember every single moment i've spent in this school.

I'll never forget how i grew up and made the bestest friends here.

And i thank affinity for bringing me here

and meeting the greatest people in my life.

Oh dear I hope my tears don't fail me tmr.Plsss.

Arnd 10 over daes left to mug.

Jiayou to myself manz.

So Blog is officially to Hiatus Mode now.

No more computer no no no.

" Things get better, Through whatever

If you fall, Dust if off, don't let up

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

Through it all, Just stand up. "

This song is written for the cancer patients

but i think it sorta can be used now.

I mean like, I shldnt give up no matter how hard the muggin will be.

I know i can i will and i must do well in this Olevels.

Im gonna try my very very best and give my everything.

A month more. It's gonna be over soon. Very soon.

No matter what the outcome will be,

at least i can tell myself, i've done my best.

And im not gonna regret anything to this.

Fightin' Joy! (:

JiayouJiayou to all my dearests and fellow mates.

We shall all brave through this tgtr.

And do well for this alright!

Im sure we can all make a name for ourselves well, Jiayou!

you changed me, really.

2008-09-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tmr is Public Holidae.

Which means no school.

Yeahness to sleeping late,

Booness to one dae down to last dae of school. :/

Yeah im sad who wont okay perhaps

im de odd one feeling so unsure about this.

Wlao i cant believe this is gonna be

the last week of official school life in cchms.

I know i've been gahgahing this for almost every post

but heck i cant help but mention it.

Haisss. Stressed up like siao. Signed up for multiple consultations.

Am mugging and will mug hard esp during the two weeks.

Imma rock mugger soon. (cos i rock)

Claire and Huilin suck they bluff me til i almost teared

but i still love them too bad :P

heeheehee.

Blog will be off to Hiatus mode

once 2 weeks preparation starts and school ends.

Will be back after Os. HAHA.

Why do eye expressions seem so hard to identify?

Thats a question which i doubt there's any definite answer.

Well....Some things are not for certain. One example is now.

I dun really wanna think too much about anything.

Though i know what it feels, time had made it impossible.

No matter what, Im glad for this aquaintance.

It made a difference, somehow

You're,..great,really.

[dun ask if you dunno, dun even try to guess, its pointless manz.]

you make me feel weird.

2008-09-27T22:50:00.004+08:00

" 你的小心我的呼吸

谁会先鼓起勇气

我只想此刻的我的好心情 "

Good lyrics make my day manz.

Whatever it may be, i'll follow.

Felt bad for disappointing Mdmlee todae. :/

She looked so sad and was encouragin me so much.

I promise i will work damn tmd hard for Os maths. Really.

Im sucha asshole, cant even do well. Gahhhhhh. Im biting now.

Im quite looking forward for Os to come.

But i cant help but sadden at the thought that its the last week of school already.

Hate it lar wlao why so fast.

4years zoooooommmm.

Im gonna miss chungcheng.Alot.alot.alot.

Somewhere i grew up so much be it frenship or whatsoever.

Chungcheng is somewhere that changed me to be who i am now.

Like mama lidat. Hahaha.

Okay,should i continue to study or go sleep?. tsktsktsk.

I'll decide later wahahaha.

i miss my dears.

2008-09-25T17:52:00.003+08:00

IM SO GLAD I HAVE THESE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

Tmr is Fri.

Next week is the last week of school.

Following by is Graduation Day.

Time really really flies. How fast.

I remember the old times and the memorable happenings.

If time were to turn back, I would still choose Chung Cheng.

Because this is where i grew up, where i learnt, where i made forever friends.

And i mean really, forever.

As much as i wish for Os to end, I wish school wouldn't end this fast too.

For TFF;

I'll remember...,

the daes we have fun during lessons,

the times where we rush down for recess tgtr,

the moments where we camwhore and go siao like crap,

the times where we laugh as much as we like tgtr,

the daes where we shifty eyes with each other unknowingly,

the times where we fight and hit each other,

the chances to go toilet and locker tgtr,

the times where we walk tgtr like got wind lidat,

the daes we create noise pollution in class,

the times where we will be there for each other no matter what,

the moments where we gossip and talk nonstop at any time,

the chances for us to take part in talentime,

the times where we sing and sing and sing any songs,

the moments we shared tgtr...

For Babes,

i'll remember...,

the times where we meet every morning at the bench,

the chances to eat recess tgtr,

the daes to play scissorspaperstone to see who shld clear the dishes,

the times where we walk out that dreadfully long road tgtr,

the moments where we would also creat noise pollution tgtr,

the chances for us to wait for each other after school,

the times where we would fight and crap with each other,

the moments where we would be there consoling each other about anything,

the daes where we would see each other anywhere and start crapping,

the chances for us to eat lunch after school tgtr,

the times where we would think and think of where to go eat,

the chances to come tgtr at any time to give support,

the daes where we will sit arnd and talk about anything under the sun,

the times where we would camwhore at the silliest places,

the moments we shared tgtr...

Even the words above can't describe all the feelings running inside me now.

I have so much so much to tell every single one of you.

Tell me about friendship, this is what makes a diff to your life.

They are what that makes a diff to my life.

You guys made me grow up, made me learnt to cherish,

and made me out to be who i am.

Thanks for appearing in my life and

for being such wonderful mates for these 2yrs/4yrs.

I dunno how life would be without you all next time.

But I'm so gonna miss the shit outta u all lar.

Damn it tmd i feel so emotional now.

I dunno if i can endure the last dae in school manz. :(

I really really really love everyone of you,

soooooooo much so much so much.

Muackkk!(:

Off to rest and mug mug mug.

Mr Os, im so gonna nail you. :P

heh heh heh.

we are not meant to be.

2008-09-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

" You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter

Like a hard candy with a surprise center

Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes "

I'm so not little miss obsessive,pls.

Are we or are we not meant to be?.

Somebody,tell me. :(

Or perhaps, You're just too good too good too good already,really.

smile lar me!

2008-09-22T16:08:00.000+08:00

Im not going to think about that anymore :/

I dun wanna be sad or miserable again.

But at least Im still Happy now. (:

heh heh heh.

I just hope that _____ will _____ ba.

( HA, Os in few weeks time HOW FAST )

Gahgahgah.

i haven felt so happy already.

2008-09-19T17:50:00.001+08:00

How did I get here?

I turned around and there you were

I didn't think twice or rationalize

But I figured it's too good to be true

I said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?"

Can't find a single cloud in the sky

Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time

But really great things happen in the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one

I cannot believe it, you're one in a million.

heh heh heh heh heh heh heh heh heh.

What a nice song lar~! :D

Prelims were screwed. Like shit.

I hate it that im like so dumb :/

L1R5 is a terrible disgusting number.

And results were a total disappointment.

I didnt put in that much of effort.

Too late for regrets.

But right time to recharge and restart.

Now's the time to work as hard as i can.

I shld and would be a mugger now.

I need consultations and lotsa practice.

I know i can im sure i can.

One more month.

30+ more days.

It will all be over, soon.

Jiayou manz, Joy!!! (:

ECP CLASS OUTING!

2008-09-15T22:43:00.001+08:00

TODAY IS PLAY DAY. (:

( Awww feel so guilty... but who cares :P )

ECP Class Outing with 4Integritians today. Absolute fun though the attendance was...zzz. Nvm haha. TFF Minus 1(HL!) didnt make it too :( Those present were Kok Zm Jd Jasme Wj Koha Wt Lx Rach Yr Claire Deb Nat Me. :D Alota fun we had cos hadn't ride a bike for like zillion of years. hahaha. Nat and I were riding single bikes while Deb and Claire rode the couple bike. So cute lar they all look at the pics and you'll know. Deb cant ride and they kept crashing into bushes and need like 10-15 mins to start the bike so they cant keep stoping if not they will have a hard time starting HAHAHA. So adorable pair!. Nat and i were like having little talks while riding. Main focus was CAMWHORING. hahaha how do we get away with that right i mean. Camwhored like siao. First using Claire's camera but film used up so used phone cam instead. Snap snap snap...nonstop lar. Some of them were blading some cycling but we did had fun at bedok jetty the shoulder to shoulder thingy so fun so cool Yeah didnt regret going tgtr. Might be the last get together before Os le ba. Oh manz now haveta sae this again,

I CANT WAIT FOR Os TO END. :/

This is Photo Vomit manz. Hahaha. Hmmmm wlao i suck in the pics lar damnit. Wind wind wind :( But who cares I HAD FUN!. People! Can grab from here or Nat's blog okay i didnt edit them so its pure!!!. (:

And im pissed off with some idiot now. What the hell lar you. That was sooo not funny hor. Childishbrat.Foff,jswdd.

And that 7pm show......disappointing lar!. that stupid ziwen came back and that bitch wlao wlao sianz sianz but nvm nvm 5 more episodes i hope it has a good ending!!:D Hehhehheh.

"Why do I keep running from the truth,

Deep inside me, it was a rush, What a rush."

You wont understand the reason because its lies with me.

Its me who has this phobia who has this weird thinking.

Because,....

Im just too afraid of agains.

And for another,..You haveta give me more time.

But im sure of myself this time.Reallysure.

Argh tmr tmr tmr Start of DOOM. :/ I dread debriefs.

Giving.Up.

2008-09-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

H.A.P.P.Y

Is the word to describe Ms Tan, my feelings now, now hor not always. (: heh heh.

Prelims are officially OVER.

Stupid frens all kajiao me ystd cos i was the last to finish as i had eclit early this morning and manz they can sleep until Sun shine at their butt Arghhh. Bu Shuang :/ But nvm its all over Hahaha. And now its like the start of doom, when debriefs will totally demoralise me like siao. English compo was a disaster I dunno what i was expressing. HCL not confident. Emaths Superrr careless. Physics, as expected, Failing. Chem, hoping for a B. Bio, You know lar how well can it get i mean. EClit wahaha shuang what i learnt came out Loveyangyan. AMATHS IS THE MOST CRAZY. hardest paper i've done damn it. Only A1 gone down the drain, down down down :(

Well its all over all done cant be undone

I can only pray for something good and decent results at least. HAHAHA (:

Rushed home right after eclit paper today. Showered and rushed off to airport to meet Ze Siok and XY. Yepp correct guess. Went for studysession. I was slacking like siao cos pls lar i just finished need enjoy abit first mah at least!!! :) And and and barely did a single thing. HAHAHA.

Siok and XY are the best combination ever!! Superr hilarious. You wont fail to laugh with them around hais but why do i have such friends?!?! (:

Had fun though. Were gossiping, Alot. But had been long since we chat and talk haha though Nic and Jm not around :( Awww. Mornings are our favourites where we meetup each dae to talk and have fun and rush down for flag raising..hehhehheh.

I Love School, Because of them and TFF also lar..hehhehhehheh.

Tmr is studysession with Nat at National Library.

Meeting up at 9am. Damn it i need sleeeeep! Ahh nvm Sun Mon whooooo sleeeeep :D

HAHAHAHA.

Nat i hope i can concentrate tmr i might disturb u hahahaha (:

HAPPY because prelims are over.

HAPPY because I've done some rational thinking.

HAPPY because im in the process processing..

不该再用我的爱困住你

不该再让你眼中有泪滴

也许我们从此不再相遇

永远记得你微笑的眼睛

You will get what i mean some day. That day is nearing. Because, im deciding.

And its not because of anybody else. The only reason is just you and me.

FUCK SOONSP.

2008-09-09T13:26:00.003+08:00

M. SOON SP.

What a way to start off my post today.

Damn You S.

Im not afraid if you wanna sue me or whatever shit because

I have utmost confidence i can sue u back dead flat my dear.

First. Fuck You. No i mean You go fuck the wall or something. Whats wrong with ur bloody eyes and mind that keep going against me?!. What de hell is wrong with you. Everytime i see you, everytime you give me shit attitude. Be happy i still do as you say, i could have just walked off, but seeing a poor little thing wanting my attention and others attention and catching and torturing me in public seems the only way you can try to venge your feelings, i obliged.

But still, Fuck. Because you dun do it the right way.

Pls lar dear S. I dun fuck care what you want from me i tell you. Yes i admit i have attire problem. So? does it fucking concern you, Oh pls no. stop trying to get attention from people like this, Not helping hor not helping. And what happened todae was unforgivable. Trust me one dae i'll get back at you. You wait. Even my own form teacher doesnt lecture me like you do who the fuck are you to teach me what shit huh. Bitch. Pls dun think by shouting and thinking that ur oh-my-god booming voice can scare ppl, well at least NOT ME. Dun think that by roaring you can get me to do what you want. Pls my dear because i pity you i dun do it willingly. And fuck you for shouting at me in public and being unreasonable. You were physical okay and trust me i can easily sue you for that because you know its possible. At least when my form teacher tells me nicely and tells me to change I WILL. hear that? I WILL. it doesnt mean that if u act fierce or cheebye then ppl will listen to you hor i tell you. Things dun work this way for your information. Trust me if you were to talk to me nicely like some teachers do, i will change, I WILL. But what u did today was wayyy off the line i could resist and here i am blogging about your shit.

TODAY you shouted at me and asked me what im wearing. Omg like are you blind, bitch? Dogs can see right?!. tsktsktsk. im bloody hell wearing my uniform Like SO?. and den lecture me telling me that i dun own the skool and i shld wear it the skool's way not my way. Oh mind you mean i shld wear it YOUR way don't you?. You wanted me to wear it YOUR way huh. Yuck how nice. And when u FORCE me to pull out my drawstring, despite it being almost impossible, I did I tried. but it was rather tough as mine's quite tight. and what the fuck you did, you did not ask and touch me Oh yes you pulled out by drawstring by force and dun you fucking know that will hurt me?!.

YOU FUCKING HELL JUST PULLED OUT THE DRAWSTRING BY FORCE THAT WAS ATTACHED TO MY SHIRT AND DIDNT EVEN CARE IF IT WILL HURT ME FUCK YOU.

Did u even know u really almost hurt me cos the string was rather tight?!?! Did u fucking care?. No! what kinda fucking NICE teacher is that uh?!.

I can just go directly to GO and we'll see who is the one right and wrong then. Pls dun act physical and think you're cool You are so not, Not with that height. And Pls You made me tuck in until i look like some freak. I dun rmb skool telling us to do it THAT way. Oops i forgot I WAS supposed to wear THE SKOOL'S UNIFORM YOUR WAY. Hmmm how wrong. :/ And u even roared at me second time when i attempted to adjust, eh pls that kinda standard u want me wear is wayyy off lar. School also not lidat can! Oh okay okay YOUR WAY ya i get it i get it.

You are NOT SUPPOSED to be physical like what happened today. And not forgetting the climax. You told me to unzip my skirt. Yes UNZIP MY SKIRT. Not a word wrong. UNZIP AND PULL DOWN SO I CAN TUCK IN MY BLOUSE. UNZIP UNZIP UNZIP. what if i didnt wear shorts? You didnt even asked and u told me to UNZIP Fuck you u told me to UNZIP in public. You didnt even felt u were wrong but instead INSIST that i fucking hell UNZIP and tuck in. All you wanted was me to tuck in to wear my uniform YOUR WAY and to UNZIP. Man how brave of you to tell me that.

YOU EXPECT ME TO UNZIP UNZIP UNZIP RIGHT INFRONT OF THE PUBLIC AND YOU SO I CAN SATISFY YOUR URGE TO SEE ME TUCK IN YOU FUCKOFF.

I can easily write a letter to the school and u can wave goodbye to school i tell you. To hell to you Bitch.

And i dun fuck care what others you all wanna tell me about her like how fucking nice she can be and she is. Nothing can change my opinion Not when she's such a cheebye. I DUN BUY THAT. NO NO NO. And she's freaking biased and unreasonable and all the shit i can think of. Pls i dun mind if u would tell me nicely and i tell you i swear i'll obliged thats what i reacted to some teachers infact i would tuck in for them cos they're so understanding and when they talk to me i really felt guilty to the school and WILL TUCK IN. But NOT YOU FUCKER. You made me turn off You make me wanna tuck out more more more fold my skirt more more more You make me wanna do anything as long as its against YOU YOU YOU. I officially hate you for as long as my breath can hold.

I HATE YOU GO TO HELL PLS.

TODAY make me realised i shldnt give in to you anymore. M.SOON If u dare to do any fucking thing to me again and not speak nicely, TRUST ME u wont have good days then. And if one more time u fucking wanna touch me or expect me to strip in public, Say byebye and packup.

And myfriends pls dun speak up for her. Please.

Because this time im really really angry.

Look at what she's done to me todae.

If u still think its alright, Then GetAway.

I WON'T FORGET WHAT YOU DID TO ME TODAY.BITCH.

And im really sorry for all the vulgarities BUT I REALLY SUPERRRRRRRRR ANGRY LAR..........ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. :(

Prelims driving me insane :(

IMMA MUGGER OH NO!

2008-09-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

(Points Upwards.)

HAHA New Picture heh heh heh.

Pls dun laugh at it i took a long time to do it manz. Was damn pekchek while editing Almost gif up cos its so mafun Grrr but nvm i feel contented. Wanted to change blogskin but instead change the pic lor. Seems like a change of blogskin too mah..So now,...

"TO THE J, TO THE O, TO THE Y."

HAHAHAHAHAA OKAY FINE IM LAMO. :/

Tmr tmr tmr another start of Prelims. Alright perhaps an actual start would be from Tues for me :( Dun mention it no more. Arghh. Nvm. So tmr i must mug more i mug nothing todae except having tuition hmm this is bad. so i gotta do something, Yeah manz. But before that,...Hahaha the vineyard show last episode must watch today,and and tmr tmr VMAs. Heck im watching (:

Okay and Nat gasp when she heard about blah. Is it THAT SHOCKING?!. YOUUUU!. Ha im happy that blah rmbs me HA HA HA. Okay random.

Oh and I tell you pls dun play games with her on msn. Sure lose de lor. :( Okay perhaps cos im noober than anything in games our scores in Sudoku was like -300 vs 3000. Of course im the -300 de lar!. TMD. Unfair lor. even minesweeper flags also. i gonna train after Os man Nat i'll totally beat you!! WAHAHAHAHAHA! (okay sounds like self deceiving).

self emotic photo taken by Ms Ze.

Edited using phone so kinda suck and i couldnt find the original so...make do lar uh uh. :D

Thats how i tie hair to school due to countless feisiongs appearance these daes.

Exams and stress piling, guess feisiong also cant let me off ba :/ Nvm.

If I were you, I wouldn't be here,

If I were you I would stay right where you are.

Yeah i mean if You know i feel we shld leave things some how like this. Don't you feel that we are drifting further than before?. Like we weren't even coming any distance no more. I feel that time tell it told me that i shld have seen it coming,shld have seen you going. Sometimes i feel when our eyes meet, it doesnt feel the same anymore. Because im just trying too hard and it hurts too much which i now know how much affects me and what i treasure most. I treasure you but it doesnt goes the same you know. I mean i understand but im choosing to run away from it. But now im learning, im learning.Trust me i am.

I HAVE TO MUG :(

singalong song~

2008-09-04T23:39:00.005+08:00

期待让人越来越疲惫

谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大天要多黑

才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些差别

结局还能多明显

别说你会难过别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

How nice a song, How hurtful the feelings,

How much the tears, How long the misery,

How dreadful the past, How unforgettable the memories,...

(howaboutus.)

Some things doesnt always seem to be for granted, mind you.

I LOVE MY BLOGSONG~~~!

i hate rain.

2008-09-04T12:50:00.004+08:00

I am like stoning at home right infront of computer now.

Hais looking outside the window. Its raining AGAIN. Rain has been buggin me these daes. Well in case you don't know i personally hate rain while the shining sun is Fave. (:

And damn it keep raining these daes so mafun somemore i dun bring umbrella lar. Wdh. :/ I know rain is like part of the ecosystem thingy and that without it i might die cos plants cant photosynthesize and O2 is not enough in the environment and i might be lacked of O2 comsumption. Buttttt i still dun like the rain. :( Think about wearing nicenice and having to bear the rain holding a freaking umbrella and feet getting all wet due to the grounds that flood with rainwater and grass and mud and..... Eeeew i hate rain. Final conclusion.

Arghhh.Nvm.

Todae no studysessions outside.

Kinda bored though I cant study at home super inefficient

But well I'll try,Later. Hahaha. :D

Ystd was studysession @ Airport with Ze. Hahaha was freaking late Supposed to meet @ 11am end up reaching at 11.30 instead. Sorry dear. And she bought BigBreakfast(woah!) for me and didnt buy for herself cos she got not enough $$. Okay im touched ah babyfever(: She kept complaining about the stupid lightings cos it was rather dark the orangey light,as learnt in Physics is to make one environment more comfy. HAHA. She was so pekchek with those integration questions that drove both of us siao. And there was this bunch of wannabe ahlianz and ahbengz that were flirting with each other at the table near us. We were so pissed manz. They were like watching vids on their phone and laughing and screaming like nobody's business whatdehell Yuck. Swear im not anywhere near though Hl loves to call me ahlianauntie. Okay perhaps cos im auntie uh somehow. :( That isnt something to be proud of. haha.

Okay ystd was rather fruitful. Did Bio and completed Amath tuition hw. Not bad not bad. But Bio i still have alota doubts :( All thanks to havin ___ as teacher. Nvm its luck Yeah blame that. She's nice lar i mean but her lessons are..oh well Not Helping manz. Bio used to be favourite and Best subject but now its like worst results I hope i can pass kinda thing :/ Reality...aiya. Okay i realise im like ranting alota here but who cares I've revive my blog. Wahahaha okay its due to the hols. Guess i wont be updating as much when skools reopen le ba.

Again, I cant wait for Os to end. :/ AWW.

I want more studysessions cos it helps. (:

"其实没有我,你分不清哪些差别."

Been thinking about this lately....

Im craving for food now. Bye.

Airport date.

2008-09-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

OKAY DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND, IM LIKE BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN (:

HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA.

Alright...Long awaited update...I know how lag i seem to be. Tsktsktsk.

Awww...How nice to call this week the "Sept Hols". Ya right manz.

I've been slogging. Okay,perhaps not THAT MUCH.

But definitely more than normal. :/

And i kinda hate it. I hate mugging.

Life's gotta be much more than just Studies lor.

Airport and Tamp Library is now my new homes to my books and notes HAHA.

Ahhh i cant study at home. Super not conducive...

With Computer,Tv,Fooooooooooooood!

Ya Ya Ya Ya I know...............Im getting fatter....hmmmmm But i still eating ALOT. Perhaps its due to the overloading of words and information into the brains. Im eating more than usual :(

Arghhhh I keep telling them I cant wait for Os to end manz.
I cant bear to live life just by mugging Its too boringgg.
Like what Nat and I discussed in the Bus today.
Life seriously shld be more than this man.

TFF mugdate todae announced UNSUCCESSFUL. HAHAHA. (:
Awww but catching up wif them was awesome we talked a whole lot.
But it was fun though I miss this kinda talking chatting sessions wif them so much. Glad we met up todae though didnt do much but still,....

Dears I Love You All Sooo Much! (:

And last thing. Hmmm.

It's stil the same thing for as far as i know now. The next other is a feeling that i cant describe. But after thinking about it, One's true feel for as long as years can count, One's the curious and the wanna know more about. So...awww...I know can le lar. What matters is im sure of me. (: Wahahaha.

~The heart has its reasons, Where of reason knows nothing. (Yeah man)